holding up my own body
my soul a puddle on the floor
drowning my heart
till there is no more

dramatic, completely
but this is all consuming

trying to grasp reality
hoping it isn't too late
one more attempt
it is all I have left

then I see two beautiful faces
they hold me close
smothering me with affection
my soul begins to solidify
my heart takes a breath

I will get through this
with my children by my side

A new place with altered faces,
an empty home that can strangle

loneliness is inevitable,
but not forever

only the strong can be carried by the wind,
never letting them settle down

I am always near,
just shut those eyes and see...
I am close,
just look into your heart and there I will be...

always

hollow, what a word to use
it explains so much of what hides below the surface  
regardless of the science provided
my body sits unfurnished
soul, absent  
heart, mutilated
brain, fragmented
everything else is there, providing me life

...

the unknown awaits him,
his journey not yet complete
he swore he was ready
who knew he would get cold feet
rushing to see those cherished faces
barely making it before defeat

A blue vinyl curtain hangs in the background
Its purpose is to separate the room
It's only me and you  
I lay beside a corpse
You, stiff and peaceful
I, rigid and suffering

I understand your reasoning
I understand your choices
But leaving so much behind you
With out a true fight

I love you regardless
You must know
Always your princess, from my first breath

He's gone
He's really gone
The ultimate runner
Always on a train to somewhere

He came back to make amends
And share the despair

I'm not mad though, I got to say goodbye
I'm completely torn though, Without you  by my side

How do I go from this point
Without a sour patch in my heart
Destruction courses through me heading straight to my heart

I love you daddy now and always
I'm always be your little princess shrimp

Let your soul be captured
let your heart be tamed
stop looking for something in the lines
love is a courageous thing

stop assuming
quit pretending
life is not forever
whether happy or not
love is a peaceful spot

never doubt yourself
nor disbelieve your feelings
your heart knows
love is true with just two beings

live knowing just that
be happy not sad
learn to appreciate what you have
love will wait
no matter how long it takes

and with this I end the truth
you are nothing but without clues
gather your thoughts and breath deep
someday you will find your mate

-LMG