Sitting in the window searching for release,
Looking through the molten glass of time to come at ease...

Staring at the fog beyond the wooded green,
Waiting for a shadowy mist no one has ever seen...

The thoughts come flooding in my skull, too much for me to bear,
I sit down at my journal writing down the words up there...

I continue writing til my hand is quivering with pain,
The words I've written are the words that keep me rightly sane...

I stop and sit and read my poem before I share with you,
My words are all I have to give and hope that they will do!

How did i get here? What have I become?
I cannot feel my heart, my mind is completely numb!

I try to open my mouth to speak the words I feel,
It's blank inside my voice..is this happening?..is this real?

I am baffled at the silent words that didn't pass my tongue,
I worry now that I'll never sing the songs I've never sung...

I try again, this time much louder, just to hear the air,
I am now confused at this silence that isn't even there...

I try not to panic..I try to look at ease,
I try not to say anything..but do everything to please...

I had a dream last night about flying through the air,
I was soaring through the clouds without a hint of care...

The wind was caressing the sides of my face,
I accepted this flight with loving embrace...

With my eyes closed tight, my heart beating fast,
I knew I had found peace within, finally...at last...

I swooped around, in and out through the sky so blue,
And when I woke, it was clear, i would be okay without you...

As I sit here in this place,
I can't help to notice the smile on your face...

It was only last year that you stole my heart,
At that very moment my life made a start...

You are my blessing, my Angel from above,
I sit and wonder how I was blessed with so much love...

You have my heart in your tiny little hands,
And my undivided attention at almost all of your demands...

I not only have you to share my life with, but two others as well,
I pray I see you all grow old, but only time will tell...

There are so many things inside of my head...
Things i hate to think of...
Memories that I dread...

There are feelings in my heart and a pain inside my chest...
Feelings of broken dreams...
Life that was at its best...

I have so much to offer, yet nothing left to give...
You took all that I had in me...
Except my will to Live!!

I knew you wouldn't call, I know you just don't care...
I used to think you loved me, but you were never there...
I think if I let you go, you will choose to come back to me...
I know I am wrong for thinking this, so i'll choose to set you Free!

I drift around all alone passing through lives, hoping to make a difference in mine, but pushing for a difference in you...
All I do is float around in exsistance...never truly living, feeling, or being...just hovering over waiting to be fluttered away...
Hoping i will be drifted into the right life...the One...
I float...nothing there for me but air...i drift away...
Alone...