the artificial lights of heavens in your hospital bed

sitting there looking pretty

smoking uselessly thin cigarettes

fell asleep on the taped pattern of the ****** scene

twenty-seven stabs

shrunken ribs in filthy sheets

the clergymen sang your name in echoing prayers

your wedding pictures are a horror movie

shotgun once

shotgun twice

does your husband look at you when you wear your satin and lace?

he hasn't seen what i've seen

running away in your gown

forever fantasising of what we could have been

once

twice

flash. strike a pose

flash. you're photographed

flash. swallow this

flash. next thing you know you're propped up on stage

flash. inhale that

flash, flash, flash

next think you know you are the hottest chick in town

flash. strike another pose, give me glamorous

give me face, give me attitude, give me bones

flash. you're too much like this

not enough like that. flash again

next thing you know you are replaced

being perfect only lasts for a while

flash. where did your brightness go?

did the mean industry take it away from you?

flash. drink up, smoke more, eat less

give me body, give me fantasy, give me your soul

flash. nosebleeds, paranoia, sickness, flash again

did you get enough yet? is this what you wanted?

you had it right at your pretty feet, keep your composure, show a good posture

catwalks, magazines, wooers, fanciness, couture and nice makeup, isn't it what you wanted?

the superstar, the *******, the shiniest between all of the pretty, petty girls

next thing you know you are disfigured and tossed away, being ideal never lasts a lifetime honey

spiralling down, haven't you got enough?

flash, flash, flash, flash.

he looks at me with his big eyes

they talk to me

they say

come on

take my hand

follow me

the night's old and her bones are shrunken

bleached on the beach

come on

they repeat

come here

don't go back on the cemetery road

stay with us

we're waiting for you

the feast can't begin otherwise

there'll be wine and dionysius above us

uncovered ******* and voluptuous legs

time will stop and the nymphs will keep you with us

don't leave so soon

come on

take my hand

follow us

my beating heart belongs to you

it's yours so please keep it i don't want it back

you were my blood and i was the smoke in your lungs

i'm crying and on my knees waiting for your lightning

my brain is boiling and thoughts are leaking

it's leaking on your hands and painting the floor

floor where i pray closing my eyes joining both my hands and calling your name

waking up in the morning with the ghost of you hoovering over me like a cold breeze

twist my wrists and break my nose

give me the warmth of something that i know by heart

give me the one that i can call home

satisfy the hunger of the rumblings

take the same way home and take me back to what i know

the night keeps going as my body longs for a rest i can't reach

the constant fears clawing at the last remains of strength and thought

take me home take me to what i know best

yes it is a pity
now it is a shame
how we broke each other's hearts
and caused each other pain

tell me Lord
hear me Lord
forgive me Lord as i try and stumble again

good day sunshine
good night sunshine every night
where did it go?

must all things pass?

la-da-la-da-la-da-da

here it is

ladies and gentlemen

the grand finale you've all been waiting for

but you've all seen that movie before

plain and simple

birds eating faces and blood-******* snakes

alone at the kitchen table

simple and plain

the ugliest plastic flowers

you've all seen that scene before

and yelling in front of the TV never made anyone a billionaire

as if you were bound to be skeletons

an early suicide nose and a broken cradle
don't let go of his hand
please don't
you've got no idea of how fragile he is

please don't raise your voice
the night is scary and the monsters in his head are out

heart hammering heavy and sweaty palms

why can't you stay on your own
why can't we leave you alone
why are you crying

you've seen it all before

the hopelessness of an unadopted child getting too old
people passing and leaving

you'll end up like you began
utterly alone in your shell

head pounding and tears blurring

you'd rather feel empty than feel too much

bittersweet orange juice and forgotten band aids

why are you letting go
he's crying for you to come back

like falling from a bike over and over again
ears ringing like a wasp nest

the dark is uninviting and frightening

they'll crawl to your brain and you can't hold them back

nobody believes you
nobody believes in you

it's your fault
when will you grow up

no one will pick you up and carry you to bed
no one will kiss you good night on the forehead

so get yourself together and be a man
you probably won't ever be his son
they'd be right to leave you behind

stop wondering why
nobody wants that child that you are

dry your tears and puff your chest

knock some sense to your head stand up for yourself

salty cheeks and soups burning your tongue

falling into open arms won't hold you tight

there's no soft hand to grip onto

you're left alone and it's spooky

left and right and no familiar faces

hungry and wailing like a wounded beast

what are you gonna do about it

nobody will be sorry for your pretty face

you know nothing lasts forever
and they pushed you into that big void

you fell to the cold ground
with the poisonous walls and spike corners

wondering where's your bedroom door

shut and locked forever