So after Polar Opposite
I mourned (still am)
And crushed
(Still am)
And had a fling with another guy
(Learned my lesson)

I lost a few friends
And met some new people
And Polar Opposite gave up chasing me
(Don't get me wrong almost all the poem on here
Are about him)

And realized I have a problem
(I got lots of those actually {That was a joke, you're supposed to laugh})

Should I keep my secret of who I am?
So that no one will hate me
Or fear me
Or judge me
So I can be safe?

Or let it all be open
And give up my alluring mystery
And my "friends"
And doom every relationship I ever have

I am so tempted to tell you
Dear reader
Because I will never have to face you in person
And I always feel loved
In your comforting ranks.

Something we're always in need of.
Something we want and are constantly searching for.
You can't buy it.
Or rely on someone else to give it to you.
It is only you, that can bring yourself the happiness you deserve
Create it.
Be it.
Do it.
Be your own happiness and then bask in it honey.

Why am I so frightened
To say I'm me
And publicly acknowledge
My small mastery?
Waiting for sixty years
Till the people take out the horses
And draw me to the theatre
With triumphant voices?
I know this won't happen
Until it's too late
And the deed done (or not done)
So I prevaricate, Egging
them on and keeping
Roads open (just in case)
Go on! Go on and do it
In my place!
Giving love to get it
(The only way to behave).
But hated and naked
Could I stand up and say
*******! or, Be my slave!
To be in a very unfeminine
Very unloving state
Is the desperate need
Of anyone trying to write.

what make me so sad is failing you as the love grows
i am promising you to give the best of me and yet many times and many ways i failed you

the love principal thought me
for the lover giving all the thing to beloved felt so a little
and having a little thing from beloved is the greatest blessed

and where do i stood
as a lover
and yet i give u nothing
nothing but trouble
and u
u gave me everything i need
in every little thing even when u needed the most and yet i cant give u anything

cant u see..? this why i never be thanking you enough, you are the greatest blessing i ever had

then i failed u
again and again

then the question is consuming my thought
i am not worthy for you
for everything of you

made you worried all the time will make you so sad
and i failed you
again and again

all i can say
i am sorry
please forgive me

and i failed you
and i am thanking GOD for giving you so much forgiveness
and yet i will failing you again

i wish i know all in your thought
so i wont failed you
i am so sorry
even me i hate my self to say that phrase
and is all i can do
i am so sorry
and i will try hard not to fail you
and i am so sorry
for my love growing deep with you
and i am so sorry

Into the truth
The longing lust for the divine purpose
We fall and rise again
Only to realize the steps and progress in this unknown life

The sun supports our healthy hearts
The physical form
Beneath the stars

Falling into our true identity
We need freedom
Thriving bodies
To protect and grow the energy

Looking up at the unknown,
What do we have?
We need purpose, joy to fulfill our dreams, aspirations.

Struggles we face are unbound,
To our wide range of emotion
Looked at by others, piercing eyes
Wondering minds.
Learning, we then see the world fit for us.