I'm set to self-destruct
It's a dark compulsion
Deep under my skin
Buried in my soul

A compulsion
tempting fate
Through razors
And fire

And I am wondering
If he'll
Notice

On time
To save me

I have finally accepted
I will never find a person that says
"I love you more" first
And then says
"Oh, thank god. Me either"
When I laugh and say that
I don't play that game.

Will never find that person who
Writes me poems but yet
Is not a hopeless romantic

Who shows me love without
Smothering me in it

Who I can debate with, without
Arguing or hurt feelings

I will never find that person
Who is exactly
Like
You

My heart jumped
When I thought
You had texted

And it stopped
When I realized
It wasn't you

I'll be right out,
Just give me a minute
Because I need to hide the tears
That I certainly wasn't just crying
And attempt to look like
Everything's fine

who needs sleep?
i can stay up all night i guess
not like i actually wanted to sleep
or have a peaceful night
without you running through my head
in a tireless loop of
"i love you"
and
"i dont think i can do this anymore"
i mean, sleep is overated anyway.
id rather stay up all night and
do things completely unrelated
to how you betrayed me
in an failed attemp to forget those words
"i never want to see you hurt"
and
"i will always be yours"
i can sleep tomorrow.
when im so exhausted that
i cant think of you at all.

oh.. I'm so sorry
really. i am
i never meant for it to happen
my voice of reason deserted me

i didn't mean for that little kiss
to get so out of hand
i wanted to snuggle
not end up in your bed

you could get in so much trouble
im sitting here listing the charges
if mother ever found out
we would probably both be dead

you are still the one i love.
it has been forever since i could tell you
i havent seen you, or heard from you
i thought you said still friends?

but you are not here.
even though im still waiting for you
what the hell should i do?
ive tried to just shut off these ideas

but im still sitting here.
lost in thoughts you
that perfect hair i want my fingers through
and those lips, ill never forget

theyve probably found some other girls mouth
i wonder if she loves you like i do
if she loves your hair too
i wonder if she will be able to move on.

or will she be stuck too?