Here's a hand full of life...

Go live it up.

well I know I might be crazy.
but I'm **** sure not insane.
and I love all those raised me.
yeah I Thank them for the pain.
And for those who didn't make it, I'm sorry you lost the game.
We're Giving up angels, but still it's Such a shame.  

Now let me sit down, give this a try.
Even If it's wrong, just close your eyes.
Losing Makes us strong, When It sheds some light.
You just gotta look passed,  how you feel inside.  

Put your hand up to God, Give Him a ring,
Just to say hello, If it ain't a thing.
So you go bye bye.
With The glory inside.
Of your mind, To keep inside,
for the rest of your life.

It's Like a shadow, but **** it's bright.
And it can lift you up, like a crane so high.  
So just think back to days you played.
when You were in school, it don't matter the grade.
It's Never too late to get yourself saved.
In fact, like wine, it gets sweeter with age.  

Standing UP For the pledge of allegiance,
But not saying God if you found it inconvenient.
Just Close your eyes, I'm sure you can feel him,
Warm up your body from the outside in and,
Say little prayer, Before You go to sleep. Who cares if the people you're around try to say that it's weak,
You just gotta choose where you wanna take a seat.
Then Take time to relax, yeah kick Up your feet.  

We always think, Then we Give insight.
But we don't make. The rules for this life.
We all just envision The incision,
And hope that it's right.
Don't Mistake the decisions.
That you have made inside.
Because Lying to yourself, is a Shame you can't hide.

You got that special look That steals my breath.
laying down with you i get no rest.
My heart goes dun dun dun inside my chest.
When it comes to loving, you're the best.  

You're the reason i get out of bed.
Go to work Til i drop dead.
And one thing, I must address.
The sight of you as you undress.
Stops me, puts me in a trance.
Lord please give me once last chance.
To make her smile til her face hurts.
Stay up all night making love to her.
Rushing through the day to clock out.
So i could see what she's sad about.
Coming home to see her cook.
I just can't help myself but look.
She's in nothing but her birthday suit.
As tempting as forbidden fruit.
I'm the Adam to her eve.
Sometimes i still just don't believe.
That she's in love with someone like me.
And she's not afraid if the world sees.
How happy together we can be.
Loving for all eternity.    

But one thing i now understand.
God made her for another man.
And no matter how much it hurts.
I still have to hope it works.
So in the future i will see.
Your amazing smile because you're happy.
Even if it's not with me.
I'll let you go and let it be.  

Saying goodbye was always hard.
My heart is soft from all the scars.
left behind as you walked away.
Where would we be if you had stayed?
Would we be at a beach playing in the sand.
Or white skirt twirling in Ireland.
These specific words have caught your ears.
But I just can't stop myself here.
I miss you more every single day.
I kept your letters by the way.
I read them every single night.
And think of how you did me right.
And i did you wrong.
So I guess I'll just move along.
And say goodbye.
Trying my hardest not to cry.
As our fingers seem to lose their grip.
And our broken hearts continue to rip.
I have to say just one last time.
I love you with all this heart of mine.  

And as I say I'm moving on.
Document my feelings into a song.
Telling the truth of how i feel.
My heart is always yours to steal.
And If you ever feel the same.
If it brings you back I'll take the blame.
And change my ways.
If it makes you stay.
Please Do it soon I'd hate to wait.  

Suddenly it hits , is been too long.
You've moved on and found someone .
Who makes you smile and makes you laugh.
I thought i was the best at that.
So I'll end my thoughts with these last words.
I hope you get what you deserve.
That Big house.
That's Full of kids.
That Amazing spouse.
What You wanted.
And as life pushes through.
I'll try my best to believe the truth.
That We were not supposed to be.
I'm not the one for you, you're not the one for me.
But i can't seem to loose this thought.
The necklace you made, the one i bought.
Getting Tangled up, intertwined.
Guess I'll have to stop this heart of mine.
From loving you more with every breath.
Because of my memories you're the best.

Every Day i wake up.
Expecting To find my one true love.
Laying Next to me.
But all i see.
Is an empty space where my heart used to be.
By the time that lunch has come,
I feel like I've lost someone.
but gained a thought.
Which Is helping me be less distraugt.
Life has lessons you must learn.
No punishment i didn't earn.
And now that it is clear to me.
I'll let you go and let it be