is it sad
that two beings
are eachothers
replacement for loneliness
and share minimal
mutual attraction
but the same amount of holes?

and it has been written
in electronic contract
and blue light
the extent of their flirtation
and absence of emotion

you are sinful
abrazce mi cuerpo
and eat it wholly

conceived
and birthed
prematurely
i clung to you
and the little life you'd shown

and i cut
the umbilical cord
     too quickly
but you were compiled of
    nutrients
i feed you through transfusion

but after having nursed you
though ******* and lips
your detachment
is my greatest loss

i have been saving my apple seeds
after eating the whole fruit

piles in my pockets

i dont want to die
from their combined cyanide
i have just
been saving apple seeds

have i collapsed?
no

but crumpled slowly
under steel thoughts
and rubble shouldes

and it was first mucus
that left my body

then my stomach

and finally
i was a pile
of rubble

you are
annoying and unfaithful
greedy and habitual
poor baby
what must you lust after now
and sob rivers with no reasons
you lack directions
and standards
and thrive on attention
of unattractive actions
you are eleven
going on ten
and have yet to blossom
we give up on you
since i occupy the back burner
behind rats and redheads

lets be two naked
self conscience individuals
and sit in a half full
half empty bathtub

we'll fill it with freezing water
that evaporates when our skin makes contact
we are magnetic
and static
and our clothless skin transfers
heat through osmosis

our necks are sweating
and beading
and drips down the stunted hour glass
love handles filled with sand

and that sweat is freezing
but evaporates down my body
ripples in the water
we have not moved in hours