I hope the trees and flowers have made time for you
and the proper attention is being paid
because you have done things too courageous
and greedy
for me to comprehend
and when I see your name I smile

we share directions
live vertically
and fluctuate our emotions.
   though you chose a permanent ending
and mine will remain sweet and ongoing
but when I see your name I grin

I fear bleeding as you do
and seeing as much red as you have
but dear Sylvia,
show me your inspirations
because when I see your name I giggle

I wonder what it'd be like if
your rests were endless
and you never awoke
and how my life would be hollowed
and my chest would be empty
and it's hard enough to crave an embrace
let alone to lose you forever
so my worries flood me like bodies in cemeteries
praying that you are never among them

so rather than scaring myself blind
I’ll appreciate your time now
and sleep with you for short whiles
until it is eternal

And one day I hope to understand
how the sea ends and the earth begins
but never do I wish to meet it
because the sea’s depths stretch greater than its widths

and for many moons I let the earth seep in
and I let it build
and take away my waters
   but the sea is far greater
   and its unknown strength then regained its rightful place
   where those islands had been

never will I know the bottom of the ocean
but if I lurk
I will cease to wonder

and will have met land

Though my eyes be white
my thoughts be not
and I often imagine
our brains as one

and what’s on that mind
lies a single obsession
and to get there
we venture

being the gentleman
you begin our journey
and with coy words
you leave me guessing where we may end up
but assure we will arrive

but when you're worn out
I assist you
and show you
through tender touch and tongue
where we head

and finally we arrive
san disturbance
and our actions remain unjudged

It started in the spring on a stairwell
when the voice of the man behind the screen was finally heard.
and it led to awkward situations
and the giggle of girls
when her stories were told to her friends.
and in her eyes
was the highest degree of adoration.

in the summer they faced their first challenge.
while he went out to better himself
and she chose to study.
but with every day she missed him
she knew she loved him more

and in the fall it got bad
they began slipping
and neither was happy.
and she stayed up crying

but then in winter things changed
and they changed.
and despite the sting of the winter winds
they were happy
and they were together

I spent many a-night crying
about how my future is changing too suddenly
about how the man who'd so generously
given me his x chromosome
kicked out us three mice
no x's
no o's

he left us to scurry for food
and to quickly find shelter
but this was no easy task
seeing as every golden opportunity
was blocked by traps

and on that final day
you stayed and helped me move
and before anything was even loaded
you stopped
and took me in your arms

then for a split second I didn't breathe
but you were so warm
and I was so scared
then I didn't want to move
because I did not belong in houses
as much as I belonged in those arms

I think these aches run parallel
to the fact that you are missing.
I have deep pain
in my lower back
I can feel each muscle pull
   the worst spot on my body

and that’s where I liked you the most
come behind me
kiss my neck
your hands, my hips
deep growls
from inside your stomach
   that area misses you the most