My mind is never clear
Always rattling with some new thought
Some distraction
So hard to think things through
And decide to be with you.
Confusion

So here I am again
Faced with another end
I have to wonder why I even try.

Pick myself up once more
No sense in lying on the floor
I have to wonder if it's worth the pain.

I knew it wouldn't last
I know this from my past
I have to wonder if I can hold on.

To anything....

Wish I got a chance to know
Why you chose to let me go
So many things I'd like to say
There will never be another day

It hurt to know you didn't care
To know I'd never see you there
Was it me that scared you away
There will never be another day

Never understood this pain
Drowning in an endless rain
Straining for a glimpse of light
Buried in an endless night

Watched others struggle from afar
Nothing could erase the scar
Now I'm in this dark abyss
Not a thing that I would miss

Close my eyes and pray for sleep
Don't wake me, don't hear me weep
Can I survive another day
Pray that I just waste away

Holding on by a thread
Would I really be better off dead?
Would anyone know I was gone?
There's nowhere where I belong...

Reaching out for a friend
Who will just turn their back in the end
Can anyone hear my cry?
Will anyone care when I die....

Help me to see a light
There's no ray of hope in my sight
It's so hard to do all alone
There's nowhere that I feel at home...

In the middle of a busy day
I find you creeping into my thoughts
And anything I was doing
Simply slips away

I wonder

Do you ever think of me?

I wonder

Will my heart ever be free?

I wonder

How do I choose between two
Two hearts offered to me
Two  souls searching for love

How do I turn one away?
Two hearts and one will break
Two worlds very different from each other

I cannot choose
I cannot lose
How would I make that decision?