Hate is a strong word
that's why I choose to use it..
It explains exactly how I feel about you

A childhood destroyed
Happiness hindered

Grew up calling you mom,mommy, mama,mother
Treated you like there was no other
Showed you love only son could offer

I asked for a fish, u gave a snake
Looked for love but you showed me the stick.
Oh,How well I knew that stick
Asked for a warm bed and a pillow
All I received was a coldfloor and a Brick

But still my love for you stayed strong.. Even when told I don't belong..
Heart burnt so many times it no longer feels sore
You make it look like ****** cared for the jews more
A home with no love, a "family" of individuals..
What more could a minor ask for?

I want to fight fire with fire
Smoke blunt get higher and higher
An eye for an eye
Take your life and give up my place in the sky
But I can't,its not me.. Sure sometimes I see people get hit by cars and all I can think is how lucky they are to die

I hate you..
But I can't blame you..
As much as I write wrong about you I know I can't never right the wrongs about you..
Hate is a strong word..
That's why I choose to use it..

You need to change
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i cant stand myself without u
and frankly i feel its the world
the only one that will face me is my watch
the only one that will stand my smell is this cheap cigerette
the only one that will kiss me is the ***** bottle
with no one but my pillow to ******
you gave me your heart and i let it tumble
sports analysts would call that a fumble
the play was simple but i let it crumble
now another grows spiritually with u
i remember when it was just us two
before i put my neck in this noose
love is a war field with no trues
just guns guitars and blues
torn trousers,sheered shoes
ugly duckling great goose
virtual lovers distant soulmates
brought together by a common destine
separated by two separate fates
i wrote once its better a heart that loves than one that hates
i need you to love me
like Adam ******* on 51st dates

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its nights like these I wish we never met
That we wouldn't have made plans
That I wouldn't have fooled myself into thinking our future was set
The mind might forgive but the heart finds it hard to forget

Prolonged hope
Minor problems magnified through a mental microscope
Spiritual sessions on Sunday with Jewish rabbis
Wrote a broken note to the biship who passed it on to the Pope
If I can find a new spiritual dealer then maybe I can break away from these mad ties
Holding ur hand in China,rainbows at our feet fire flies illuminating the black skies
You were the provider of all my high
The believer of all my lies
N I could never quite stay away from all these thighs
I guess you leaving me never did come as a surprise
Cloud cover,I had to forget about sunny skies

Blue lake of tears
Let it all dry up and call it Salt Lake City
Meet a nice girl in a summer dress give her a rose n tell her she looks pretty
But cheat once she might show mercy do it again and she will show no pity
Advice to your current coz if he aint care full he be floating on this boat with me
Learning from his mistakes,hiding his face everytime he sees me

I can't keep living like this
Life is short, I need to live it in bliss
You with a smile only a dead man can miss
Holding on in the hopes of one last kiss
I need a new addiction,cause stalking you is keeping me from the life that I am missing
Can't let positivity escape my doubt..
No short cuts to happiness gotta take the longer route
I've invested too much
I've had enough
I'm Login out

But for how long
A ***** addiction that is so strong
A longing for love that is so wrong
things to tell at my next therapy session
My reoccuring obsession
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