We were in the mountains
Skiing with friends and making snow men
It snowed and we laughed
We kissed in the snow
Our  nights were spent by the fire
With me in your arms
But somehow
In such a short amount of time
Everything changed
And I don't know why.
Was I not good enough?
I fell for you as you fell out of me
And that is why I can't look at you
Because I am still in love
I won't tell anyone
You can never know
That I can't bare the sight of you
Perfectly fine without me
And I try with everything I have
To be okay with it
But I'm not

I wrinkle my nose
And smell the salty air
So fresh and clear
I close my eyes
And listen to the waves kiss the shore line
I  try to understand the secrets it holds
Resting my head on a pine
I glance at the waves
So strong and so sure
They know exactly what they're doing
And they don't  hesitate
Where as the delicate shore is so vulnerable
And inocent and raw
The water is calm
no matter how big the waves are
It's peaceful here
It whispers to me
In a tongue I don't speak
Yet I long to understand what it is saying
Ohh the deep blue see
I wish I understood you
Knowing all you know
Seeing all you see
I close my eyes again and listen
One day maybe I will understand

Sometimes I open my blinds at night
So I can look into the stars
Until I am satisfied I fall asleep
Then dream of you
And how we used to look at the stars
So long ago now
I wonder if you ever think about me
As often as I think about you
And every star in that never ending sky
Reminds me of us
How many good times we had
And the flow of memories twinkle at me
Mocking my loneliness
Spilling the tears down my cheeks
Blurring my vision
The stars are fuzzy and I hate him
He can never know
How slowly I'll let go

I looked through old notes and conversations
And realised:
I still love you, even though we didn't work out
I wish we could try again
But you do not love me
As I love you
I can hope and dream and seek
You will never be mine again
And it makes me sad to see you happy
Because I remember a time
When you were happy and I was happy
And we were happy Together.

Why do people hide indoors?
When there is scerene life and clarity outside its walls.
Going down a path with an unknown route, put all your worries and expectations to a satisfied mute,
Stop to look at yourself in bliss, know that one day you'll get that kiss.
Some don't think it's worth their time
But it's where they're from the dirt and grime!
How could people act so alien to the world they were born into?