Maybe someday they’ll realize
How much they hurt her
How much sadness they caused
How much pain they created
How she would get up and be lost again and again
Day after day
But maybe someday they’ll never realize
Because she pushed them away
Ignored them all and felt no more
Because night after night
She traced the silver blade against the darker part of herself
Cutting out the light that laid inside
So she wouldn’t have to see the broken parts
So she could hide in the debris of what was left
So she could swallow the pills without anyone noticing
They would never find out
She was an outcast
She was someone no one cared for
She was the Omega of the pack
But with a single bang
She would hit the floor before the ringing stopped

If I keep my lips closed
I won’t say anything I regret
I won’t be given stares
No one will throw hateful words at me
I won’t be thinking for the entire day
Did I say the right thing?
Will people understand what I said?
What if they hate me?
If I never make goals
I won’t be afraid to see the outcome
Or be disappointed of how things turned out
I won’t wonder
What could I have done better?
If I never choose to make choices
I will never make the wrong choice
I won’t be blamed for what I did
Or what I didn’t do
But then what?
I don’t have a voice
A dream
A life
I will have nothing
And that is much worse than the pain of failing
So why can’t I speak up?
Why can’t I make goals?
Why can’t I make choices?
Why can’t I take that first step to living?