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309 · Jun 2015
forbidden
little bear Jun 2015
there are secrets—
in the pocket of my black coat.

you'd rip the ribbons from my braid
and show me how to love
in whispers.
tearing me apart,
only to put me together
and feel accomplished:

like you were the first
to step foot on the moon
or to kiss me.

i love you dearly,
with your olive eyes
and crooked smile.

you weren't very good at love,
and i was very good at lying.

in the shadows of the moonlight,
you kissed me crudely.
(you'd never kissed anyone before.)
you told me you loved me—

and i told you,
lies ridden in the sentence,
that my love was not for you.
308 · Oct 2014
1&11
little bear Oct 2014
it's going to be one year and 11 months
11 days from now.
oh, how the time flies.
almost two years
i've been privileged with your company.

although, your company was my privilege since i was in 8th grade.
five years of friendship
and two of those getting to call you mine.

there were, of course
the lost months where
i said no to sitting next to you,
and homecoming.

i'm sorry for hurting you
and not being there for you.
but i will be there for you now and forever.

thank you, friend
for loving me as i am.
i promise to do the same.
299 · Feb 2014
Dead
little bear Feb 2014
i'm dead in the eyes.
the shattered windows to my soul.
everything is twisted,
and through them i cannot see clearly.

the truth is filled with lies,
and my heart is a pitter-pattering
beat, then it dies.

i'm dead in the soul,
the coal shape i contain,
fueling my hatred and sadness,
with nothing to gain.

your mouth is filled with lies,
i believed them.
every single acidic word
seemed sweet to me.
and it was the death i died by.
295 · Apr 2015
O Mar
little bear Apr 2015
Take me to the sea
when the rivers run dry.
Sit on the sand
and make our getaway:
a castle with assortments of shells.

The ocean is quick to take away
what it has given us.

Take me to the sea
and kiss me on the mouth.
Take me home.
(which is wherever you are
and you are very far from me.)

I sit on the beach,
the grains of sand caressing my skin,
hearing the ocean clap onto the shore–
It's my applause.

The sun kisses my face.
I close my eyes tightly,
feeling your hand on my cheek,
pressing my face to yours.
I smell the sunshine on your neck
and your saltwater sweat.

I am dreaming desperately
to find a piece of you that will linger
long enough to fool me.

I lay in the ocean,
the waves lapping at my body
all which are miniature kisses
sent from you.
"O mar" means "the sea" in portuguese.
293 · Jul 2014
art to the artist
little bear Jul 2014
painting with our words,
a newer reality.
the desperate gasps of air
for the broken heart,
being filled with abstract,
design, fairytales.
we live in a world we create.
art is the fortress of the broken soul.
284 · Jul 2014
oceans
little bear Jul 2014
i give up on letting people save me.
i'm going to drown.
i'll be the damsel
and i'll be my own hero.

the only way to free yourself
is to let loose every dream and hope.
other people will just bring you pain.

i'm going to live in the ocean.
breathe the ocean air.
let the ocean swallow me up like my feelings.
(there is an ocean of opportunities somewhere out there)
283 · Nov 2014
mother earth
little bear Nov 2014
i think the earth keeps hoping that even though her children have gone astray,
and hurt her, that they will come back
and tell their mother earth
"i'm grateful for all that you've done for me. i'm sorry i didn't notice it earlier."
279 · May 2015
In Between
little bear May 2015
In between the time
from when I get to my car and turn it on—
you're there.
nestled in my brain space.
between all the seconds and minutes
of my day.

you tango with thoughts of him,
i'd say it's a battle.
in between the two of you,
there is me.

this isn't a fight,
but my soul is racked with something
something i cannot name
something i've never known.

in between these fleeting thoughts
i see your faces flash
brown eyes and then blue.
one fighting to stay and threaten the other
to leave.

nothing goes.
your faces mold into
someone i do not know
and the confusion grows.

in between these spaces
are unpredictable thoughts
and feelings
i don't share.
(you linger there.)

i still remember the smell of you,
and the way you kissed me
one last time.

i find myself wishing i could open up
and cry to someone
(someone meaning you)
but you aren't here
and i'm left trying to find words
to describe these musings
in between seconds
to strangers.
264 · May 2015
alternate realities
little bear May 2015
It was bad.
I kept dreaming up realities—

one
where we swam in our spandex
after running
and you kissed me on the mouth.

two
where we laid side by side
in the bed of your old truck
and i showed you constellations
and told you each
and every story
that belonged to them.

three
where you held onto me
and your face was buried into my neck
as the tears flowed
from your swampy eyes.

each dream i dream of you
is a waste of energy.

you will never be mine.
259 · Jul 2014
~
little bear Jul 2014
~
i hope
one day,
that your heart will be my home
and i will never have to go searching for it again.
255 · Jul 2015
it stays. you go.
little bear Jul 2015
your words clung to me
like wet clothes
and tattoos.

i'm trying to forget
what you told me
in the shadow of the day.

you are a creature
unlike all the rest,
still,
there is no one willing
to be your captor.
254 · Mar 2014
empty
little bear Mar 2014
I'm writing words no one will speak.
There are things in my soul,
That cannot be contained.
There are certain things i've felt,
That i never want to again.

You hold an arrow to my heart,
And it's breaking me in two.
It shattered me once,
And i know it'll shatter me again.

I don't know what you want from me.
252 · Aug 2014
rain
little bear Aug 2014
the rain taps on the window
slowly and then frantically.
as if to say, "don't give up on me too,
i'm right out here for you."

i think people are like rain.
we are frantically trying to make
everything and anything work.

— The End —