My body is freezing
I'm shivering so bad my head hurts
I have so many layers on its weighing me down
Falling asleep is the only reasonable way to not think about how cold I am, how cold and frozen over my life is

I am stuck in time
Cannot crack or begin to melt the ice that I keep allowing to freeze
The heartache, the pain, my disappointing ways lead me to hold my arms up and allow myself to drown

Should I just give up on beginning to melt my past?
Just fall asleep and forget about it all together?
Doesn't seem reasonable, because eventuly time will pass and the glaciers will melt away

But for now, I'll just keep adding layers

I've been played by you
Once again
After you begged for my love
I let you back into my heart

I thought that you loved me
You said it so much
When I was in your arms again
I remembered your gentle touch

We said that we loved eachother
A thousand times a day
Then out of the blue
You pushed me away

Was it vengeance you were seeking
Because I resisted your love
I feel like a a fool
Its like I've been shoved

You put bullet holes in my heart
It will never stop bleeding
It will forever be scarred
Your love is so deceiving

I feel like destroying the world
You act like the Joker always grinning with evil
I sit here as my heart aches
I just need my soul to take a break

I know how Kevin McCalister felt
When he realized he was alone
No family or friends by his side
My heart is crying inside

The memories of eating a big dinner
The food coma waiting to come
Football, laughter, and pumkin pie
After the turkeys all gone

My dad, mom, brother
Sister, her hub and my baby neice
Around around the table smiling
And 2500 miles away the though of that, I'm dying

No love to share the day with
My friends are at home with their fam
Maybe next year I will partake in a *****
Instead of chinese food from Sam's

So with Netflix and take out
Sweatpants and slippers I lay
I hope the next year I'll be happy and able to enjoy this day

After awhile of you begging
I was willing to give us a chance
But now I feel like a fool
You haven't even given me a simple glance.

Thanksgiving alone
I feel like I don't matter to you
Do you really care?
Are you wanting this to work, too?

I feel like an idiot
I feel like a fool
To give my love to you
You make me feel so blue

As I lay on my bed with the TV on
I'm not even paying attention to it
I feel sick to my stomach, my heart hurts so bad
Your slowly leaving a red thick scar
And no longer makes me mad, just sad

I'll assume you have no ******* interest
To me or my love
The tears weld up and my frown gets deeper
I feel like I've been shoved

So take your heart back, cuz it has no love
And when you call back to make amends
I will just say that is it the end.