I feel like
A superhero
Even though
I haven't done much
I have
The superpower of invisibility
I help others
By disappearing
From their lives

An hourglass
Sharp, but smooth
Used
And abused
Perfect porcelain
Flawless

But fragile

Quick to shatter
Just a few feet off the ground
Running low
Falling down
Flip it over
And everything's alright
Fine

Still fragile

But it'll be okay.

A little after midnight
And a smoky room of music
Star watching
And quiet laughter
You held me
Kept me near
With your breath
And black jacket
Top of the slide
Hiding from the others
Silent whispers
And warm words

I realized that night
That I would always love you

I tried to talk
Out came no sound
You closed off your ears
I cant be heard
Mute
Its okay
It was pointless anyways
Why would someone dare to listen?

All those pretty girls with their
tears and dreams and fears,
looking for a meaning that is yet to exist.
The dead glare in their eyes,
so clear and wide,
emotionally vacant inside
shows the pain they subside.
And in that moment you can tell when one is completely broken.

I dont mean a little bit of issues
I mean
the way they talk
the way they walk
the way they live
is ultimately shattered through this utter dispair in which consumes them.

I can still feel your breath in my bedsheets
Rising and falling
Like you never left my side
I can still feel your skin on my hardwood floors
Melted into every crack
Your scent is on all of my clothes
and your taste infused in all of my food
I can still feel you here,
                                                                                                                even though you left long ago.

The sting
The slice
The pain
The price
You pay
To be
Perfect
Each day
When it
Gets dark
And scares
Your heart
You know
Its time
To let
Hope go

The tubes to my lungs are closing
Its like
A noose
Tied around my vocal chords
And inside my blood.
Its suffocating
All the words
And air
From escaping
My heart.

Cold to the touch
Nothing pumping through veins
A ghost with feet
Covered in humans clothes
Sunken eyes
Imaginary breath
A soulless existence
Frigidly numb
Holding a shriveled heart
Unable to see real life

She is a dead girl walking

I am a dead girl walking

I'm dreaming
of cigarettes and Polaroid pictures
Late Autumn nights with light through the trees
and a calm breeze
A daydream it is
but I'm begging please
Bring truth to my dreams

4 pills to wake up
2 to fall asleep
Days blur together in this world

4 breaths to live
2 cuts to die
Its all over from here

Go ahead and shut the bathroom door
Nobody's around to help you fight this war
You close your eyes as you begin to feel weak
The sting, so painful, bite the inside of your cheek
Let the red water fall out of the veins in your arm
As you lay on the floor covered in self harm

You know those nights that everything goes wrong
When the break of daylight seems to move on
When you speak words that destroy another
And feel like a child that lost her mother
You ******* the world over, and it's him you miss
But now your scared, those lips you won't kiss
He stole your heart from the very first day
Now in his heart shows where your future lays
Your mind is complicated and confused
Because you were his girl, his muse
But you hurt him with a stupid reason
Now time won't pass another season
It's time to wait, feeling like your in his choke
While he thinks about those words you spoke
You were up all night, no sleep just tears
It's exactly this thing that you feared

an empty heart
heaves
for life

inside you

We are empty souls
Heaving
Breathing
Believing
That something better exists
If not on this earth
Then in our hearts
Clawing our skin
Trying to get in
To release
This beauty we hold inside ourselves
It’s there
Isn’t it?
A fresh start, a new day
All that stands between
Is a flimsy piece of skin
Withholding all our sins

Tears fill up my pores
They have no reason or rhyme
But the flow still goes

Silence between us
Haven't talked in too many days
Nothing is normal

Give me a reason
to believe in
something.

Anything at all.