How do you deal
When they never taught you how to feel
How do you climb
When they could never be your net
How do you cope
When they were your only hope
How do I live?
When my heart gives 
How do I not bleed out 
When your words cut right through me
How do I grow?
When i have to show you just the way To go
How do I become my own? 
When I want to always be yours. 
How do I become what you never were. 
When you could never show me what you should have been
How do I become everything you are
When I can't handle the flaws 
Everything I'll ever be I owe to you
Everything I am came from the pieces of you
For everything you've done wrong 
You've done a million right
As deep as these wounds are 
Our bond is written in blood...

As true as the morning sun

Every time..
You leave Scars across my heart. 
And as you walked away
All that was left was your stain 
This will never fade
With each day 
There's only pain

Now part of me is gone 
How can I stay
I can't fight this way
There's nothing left

But there will never come a day
When I'll sway 
I'm here til the day I die

As everything falls away
I know you'll see 
You can have faith in me

A light in the dark
A love to pure
She was never so sure 
It'll start with a kiss, 
Two rings, 
And a vow 
They'll forever be together now

What if I say what I'm feeling
What if I tell you whats inside
What if I finally let you inside
What if I break down all the walls inside
What if for once I don't try to hide
What if I show you every side
What if your the right one this time
What if I trust in love just for you
What if I actually let you through 
What if I finally say I'm truly in love with you.

...when all your time is gone  
       I'm sure you'll see 
  You can have faith in me

As Years go by
As World falls away
When Everything you love has decayed

         When the world falls away
          I know you'll see 
          You can have faith in me

With every breath I breathe you in
Within every battle I feel your strength
With every day I grow more hollow
Within everyday without you here
With everyday I live for you
And everyday I feel your love
Still everyday I feel regret
In living everyday without you here. 

With everyday I see what's true 
I will always wish I could have had more time with you 
But everyday I feel your guidance 
And I wake each day knowing your here with me
I know you will guide me through
Even when I can't possibly be enough.

You said you'd never let me fall
but you did
Now I'm lying on the ground
my heart in my hands
And your nowhere to be found.


In the back of my head I always knew
That's why I never let you through.

My world is a nightmare
overcome with fear

Yet its only you there
This pain, I can hardly bare

With every beat
I feel your heat

Every ounce of pain
Coursing through my veins

There's no end in sight
For the agony you make me fight.

But just know who you'll come to face
When you throw me in that grave

You will finally see the damage that you made
sign your name across my grave

So the world will know you were my life and true demise.

I thought I had it all
You changed that from the start

What happened next
I never could have guessed

Like a bullet through my soul
You left a giant hole

Always wanting more
But still it's you I do adore

There's been so much time
Since you left my side.
I believed there would never be a change in my rhyme
But I'm here to say I'll never love you again until the day I die.

My past is filled with mistakes
each one connect to the last
by a string of good intentions
knotted with pain embedded with woe
But there's no regret in the life i lead
for each broken heart
brought me one step closer
to what I really need
which is you beside me.

If I found you standing there
In all your glory
It's as if I stepped through time
Trapped in a dream
Made only for me
Surely this can't be real
Just a delusion of my mind
But I return to find you here
Only in my wildest dreams
Would I dare to think
To find home in your arms
So lets get this right
Because I'm finally coming home tonight.

Starving for your affection
Drowning in my longing
Crippled by the fear of rejection

Of all the days I've spent away
I've never felt a greater pain
Than not knowing if you feel the same

So I will spend the entirety of each day without you
dreaming of the day you realize
I would never leave your side

Starving for the taste of your lips
Drowning in a sea of crystal blue
Crippled in each others arms

..we watch the world fall away in our sweet secret embrace.

I won't need any vice
All this time I've searched far and high could never find just what I need to fill this void inside
Had high hopes of finding it in all the right places
Family... Always a bust never any trust
Beyond crippled at the fear of rejection.
To bear my true thoughts
Scarier than death its self
Dads not truly an option never a high priority
Always daddy's little girl but a mirror image of mommy
Every weekend brought us closer but made his wounds deeper
Procrastination and an unfailable mind don't go so hand in hand
A life left waiting and a man with no motivation
A catastrophic equation to say the least
Friends seem to offer some comfort
Couldn't seem to lower the shield around my heart
Every time I let someone through it was just enough
to fall apart once they fled
wasted every good choice I made
Is there anything once they've all left
no relief for the troubles that rest on my soul
It seemed to me there was no beacon of hope
Not even a shore in my horizon
Find hope in faith through motivation
Seek growth and personal freedom
In these words that hold so much meaning
weaving a net to grasp you from relapsing.
Clinging to this feeling that I've found what I've been seeking
Forge through this land of treason, hand in hand, be my reason.