You see me breaking
From the inside out
You wonder what it is that's cracking
You say all I do is pout

But it's not true
Cuz all I do is think of you
The pain you cause
All the flaws I used to look past them
Truly I did But lately
That's all I see

I remember what you used to be
To be strong,
Stood up for what you believed in without getting in to trouble
But now...
I don't who you are anymore.
And it scares me.

I keep waiting:
To see you walk through the door,
To get another text,
Another phone call.

It's hard to believe:
That you're not coming home.
That there won't be anymore "I love you" messages.
No more phone calls telling me you're on your way home.

I had years with you,
But I want more.
It seems that it just wasn't enough.
That it's never enough.

Am I being selfish
To want you here with me?
Is it wrong to want
You here with us?

Tell me it's not true.
Tell me you'll be home soon.
Tell me you're not really gone.
Tell me this is just a bad dream.

Let me wake up in your arms
And tell me everything is ok.
Hold me tight just once more
To never let me go again.

Though, if this nightmare is true,
I just ask for one thing.
While we're apart,
Watch over me.

Watch over the one who miss you.
Hold us all close and help us ease this emptiness.
Let us know you're ok,
And that we'll together again someday.

I don't know what to do

I love you but I'm sick of all this pain

This unnecessary hurt you cause

You're not supposed to hurt me

You're the one who's supposed to take care of me forever

I'm the baby girl you said would never hurt

Yet, you're the one hurting me

And you don't even see the pain

I keep falling
Farther and farther
Into this hole that's brought both joy and pain 

Every thought,
Every kiss,
Every touch ,

Bring me closer 
And closer 
To the edge.

I'm scared you won't be there.
I'm scared I'll just keep falling.
That you won't catch me.

Tell me you will.
Call me yours.
And I know I'll be safe.

Safe in your arms.
Safe in your touch.
Safe in your heart.

Take a chance on me 
You won't regret it 
I'm not like them
I won't hurt you 

I'll show you:
How a woman should treat her man
That my heart is big enough to help heal yours
How to be taken care of the right way 

But in return I ask that you do the same for me.
Show me how a man should treat his woman. 
Help me heal my wounds. 
Take care of me.

I know it's hard, 
But we can learn together. 

Take a chance on me.
Give me your heart,
Your love, 
And I'll give you all of mine in return.

I hope you're ok.
I heard your call for help.

I hope you're ok.
I came running.

I hope he stopped.
I heard you begging him to.

I hope you're ok.
I called for help.

I hope you're ok.
The police came.

I hope you're ok.
We looked for hours.

I pray you're ok.
I heard the desperation in your voice.

I pray he stopped.
No one deserves to be hurt like that.

I pray you're ok.
We never found you.

And that's what scares me the most.

Do you ever feel broken?‎
Like there's a piece inside you, ‎
That either doesn't fit right
Or is just gone completely?‎

And you wonder why it's like that.
How it came to be broken
Or misshapen. 
It wasn't always like that.

You can remember a time 
When everything was good.
When you didn't feel broken. 
When it was all a perfect fit. 

Before you met him.
Or before you lost her.
That's why you're broken. 
Because that person took a piece. 

When you met him 
He was special.
You gave him a piece of you
That you can never get back.

And when you lost her.
A piece of you broke.
And now you don't quite fit right.
It didn't go away, it's just.... mis-shaped.

So while a piece of you is gone
Remember it's okay.

While that piece is misshapen 
Remember it's still there. 
‎
It will heal
And it will get better.
Because while you feel broken.
It's a great thing to feel.