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Lily Hasler Nov 2012
There are so many things
Out in this world
So many adventures
Waiting to happen

I want to take the risks
I want to be that person
Who tried
Who lived
Who thought the unthinkable
I could be that person
I just have to get out of high school first
Lily Hasler Jun 2013
Do you think the same?

I would like to say you do

but who knows? You're dead.
Lily Hasler Jan 2013
I like how we dance in the yard alone
The way we sway to the music
This is all I've ever known

We would sing and run to all the right tunes
Wait for the moon to come out
As far away as the balloons

We let them go
Just as we will our dreams
They flutter into the clouds
And tear us at the seams
Lily Hasler Dec 2012
"Never Grow Up!" Peter Pan says
As he flies above our heads

He tries so hard to make us see
That as we grow up
We do what we believe

He's obviously a kid at heart
But aren't we all?
Just a little more smart?
Lily Hasler Jan 2013
Seeing these old tapes
Makes me remember my youth
When everthing was simple
Just learning to tie my shoes

That's all we had to worry about
At that innocent age of four
I'd be pulling on the pant leg
Of my father at the door

"Daddy come play with me!"
"No, honey I have to work."
But wasn't it a Sunday?
I sighed, extremely hurt

So I went along and played with dolls
All alone and in my room
I bet my dad regrets that now
He seems to be falling to his doom

Yes Dad, I'm older now
I'm almost sixteen, I'll be driving soon
You knew this day was coming fast
Even with the worrying, I have become immune

I want to say I'll be here forever
But we both know that's not true
Soon I'll be flying from the nest
But please know, I will always love you
Lily Hasler Jun 2013
I hate the kind of cry
That you only know is there
Once it hits your cheeks.


So into your thoughts
You don't realize the salty tears
Coming down...

                    all the way down.

I let the liquid find its way to my chest
It reaches my heart and then
I remember why I'm crying


You.

                                             You both.
                                                                                                         All of you.
                                                                                                                                                         Everyone.
Lily Hasler Nov 2012
I watch as you walk away
I watch as good times turn to bad
I watch your face as it had no expression
I watch the seasons go from summer to winter
I watch it go from hot to cold
I watch me slowly sink into depression
I hate watching myself wither to nothing
Lily Hasler Nov 2012
Have you ever just stopped?
Stopped what you're doing?
Take yourself out of your own body
Become a people watcher for a minute and then you realize
They're not as different as you

Sure some may look different, but in reality
We're all just
Trying to make our way through
So try it
Just stop
Lily Hasler Nov 2012
You make my heart beat faster
Just from a smile
As I pass you
Through the crowds of people
I see your bright blue eyes
My stomach flips and I can't help but blush

I hope this little crush passes
But it feels so right
Lily Hasler May 2013
No one is here
I am going to sink
Does anyone see me asking for help?

No one is here
I am going to crash
Does anyone see a way out of here?

No one is here
I am going to yell
Does anyone know where my voice went?

No one is here
I am going to do it
Run
Lily Hasler Dec 2012
Run
That girl that you see
She's all smiles
So happy with her friends
So happy with her family
So happy with her life in general
She goes home to take off her mask
She cries
Alone
In her room
So her family won't find her
She needs help
She needs guidance
She just needs someone who will listen
But that's hard to find when everyone thinks you're fine
I hate being that girl
I hate being the way I am
I wish I could just run
Away from my problems
Away from everyone and start new
But I can't
Not just yet
But soon
And trust me
It'll be better that way
Lily Hasler Apr 2013
Oh no
Not again
Please don't let this happen again
I can't take the stress
I can't take the choosing
Is this right or is this wrong?
I feel a litte bit of both but I just can't stop
Am I a bad person?
Or a good person stuck in a bad situation?
Lily Hasler Nov 2012
When I think about you
Memories come
They stay for hours, days
Sometimes even weeks

When someone mentions your name
I get tears in my eyes
Wondering what it would be like if you were still here

I wish I could talk to you
But I know you're looking down on me from a better place

If I could say one more thing to you,
It wouldn't be "Stay" or "Come Back"
It would be something that I truely mean
"Thank you" for being my guardian angel
Lily Hasler Jun 2013
My heart is not the same as my brain
They have two different functions
They hold two different meanings
They are both telling me different things

My brain explains the good from the bad
While the heart says "go for what makes you happy"
But my brain doesn't know what that is yet
I am still trying to figure that out

I suppose this makes me human
Just like the blood running through my veins
But if that blood escapes from our body,
How much do we have to lose until we're no longer human?
Lily Hasler Dec 2012
I wonder if you ever see me
Looking at you through the TV

You have the life
You've got it made
I hope to be in that place someday

I'm just trying to chase my dream
I want to make it a reality

You seem to be so high on life
Now please tell me, where am I

Where am I in this big ol' world
I feel so lost, alone, just a girl
Lily Hasler Nov 2012
Suicide is a hard thought
We've all thought about it
Even if you don't want to admit it
You've thought of how you would do it
Who would care
Who would come to the funeral
Who would cry over you
Is it bad that it's becoming more of a fight not to think about it?
Lily Hasler Nov 2012
I can't keep doing this
This pretending
I tell myself I'm fine
When in reality,
I'd rather be anywhere else but here.
Lily Hasler Jan 2013
I miss the look
Of sun kissed skin,
The feel of the ocean,
Your subtle grin

The way your hand
Brushed up mine
Made my heart skip a beat
Like the end of time

I feel like my world
Is crumbling down
No way to put it
You're better off now

The looks are awkward
I am confused
We were so close
But now I feel used

    I wish to go back
                    To a simpler time
                                                 When the sun beat down
                                                                                              And you were still mine
Lily Hasler Mar 2013
There are some things I’d like to ask
To this body of mine
Do you like the way you look?
Or would you rather fix your flaws?

No bodies are perfect
But it seems that way for some
For yours have so many imperfections
Or though it might seem so

To my body: I don’t like the way your thighs don’t touch
I don’t like the way your stomach’s not flat
If models aren’t the way you are,
Why would boys desire to have you?

I wish they could see what’s beneath your looks
Because if so they might look twice
But no one ever cares enough
To see what’s good down deep inside

So to my body I ask; will you change for their demands?
I think you’re better just being yourself
If they can see what’s in your heart
That should be enough for anyone, especially you
Lily Hasler Apr 2013
There are very few things in our world
That we have a choice with
From the color of our cars,
To our best friends.
But if someone tries to take that right
Away from our tiny grasp

                                             What's the point of the being your own person?  
                                             What's the point of having a brain of your own?
                                             What's the point of even thinking about it?

                                                                                                                                       What's the point?
Lily Hasler Mar 2013
The question I ask the most is why
Because it answers all.
Why does sadness begin with “Bye”?
Why does it hurt to feel so small?

Being as curious as I am
I’d like to think of myself as smart
But what if this is all a scam?
Is thinking considered a type of art?

If it is, I’m quite the artist
Because I think all the time
Do you think that you’re the smartest?
Is thinking you are such a crime?

Why does life have to be so hard?
Why do questions not have answers?
Some of these issues you can’t discard
Like are we humans or are we dancers?
Lily Hasler Dec 2012
I look in the mirror
After you've gone
And wonder what pictures
In my body you've drawn

You say it's for my own good
But I don't think you get it
I wear baggy sweaters now
Cause most kids don't get hit
Lily Hasler Feb 2013
If you're in a place you don't like
You think it's dark
It's dark and scary

Well stop thinking you're alone
People like you, who feel this way
Think it's only them
Who are on the verge of exploding
Exploding with anger
Bursting with saddness
Overcome with emotion

Trust me
It's not only you
There are others
People you don't expect
People who you think are happy
They're usually the worst of them all

So you're not alone
Have trust in yourself
Once you overcome this eternal saddness
It's a wonderful world
It seems so bright and full of color

After all,
The existence of the dark makes us appreciate the light.

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