I look in the mirror
After you've gone
And wonder what pictures
In my body you've drawn

You say it's for my own good
But I don't think you get it
I wear baggy sweaters now
Cause most kids don't get hit

That girl that you see
She's all smiles
So happy with her friends
So happy with her family
So happy with her life in general
She goes home to take off her mask
She cries
Alone
In her room
So her family won't find her
She needs help
She needs guidance
She just needs someone who will listen
But that's hard to find when everyone thinks you're fine
I hate being that girl
I hate being the way I am
I wish I could just run
Away from my problems
Away from everyone and start new
But I can't
Not just yet
But soon
And trust me
It'll be better that way

Suicide is a hard thought
We've all thought about it
Even if you don't want to admit it
You've thought of how you would do it
Who would care
Who would come to the funeral
Who would cry over you
Is it bad that it's becoming more of a fight not to think about it?

I watch as you walk away
I watch as good times turn to bad
I watch your face as it had no expression
I watch the seasons go from summer to winter
I watch it go from hot to cold
I watch me slowly sink into depression
I hate watching myself wither to nothing

You make my heart beat faster
Just from a smile
As I pass you
Through the crowds of people
I see your bright blue eyes
My stomach flips and I can't help but blush

I hope this little crush passes
But it feels so right

There are so many things
Out in this world
So many adventures
Waiting to happen

I want to take the risks
I want to be that person
Who tried
Who lived
Who thought the unthinkable
I could be that person
I just have to get out of high school first

Have you ever just stopped?
Stopped what you're doing?
Take yourself out of your own body
Become a people watcher for a minute and then you realize
They're not as different as you

Sure some may look different, but in reality
We're all just
Trying to make our way through
So try it
Just stop