My guardian angel, my protector,
Where are you now?
Why have you abandoned me in my most desperate hour?
You can't retire now,
not whilst you're still needed,
Surely, it can't work this way?
Please, come back to me,
I need you for one last day.

My heart's been broken so many times,
It's now 100% glue,
And yes, that means there's no way, I'm ever forgiving you,
I've tried to forget, tried to move on, tried to mend my aching heart,
But, for the most part,
It's all been in vain,
I don't know how to end this unbearable pain!
I want to start afresh, start again, turn a new page,
But I can't do that until I forget, you're frightening rage…

People lie all the time,
They say they love you, they say they care,
But when you truly need them, they're never there.
I lie too, I'm no exception,
Every time I say I'm fine,
Truth be told, I feel alone, unloved, used and worthless,
I need to find a way to clean up all this mess,
It's time I started being honest, maybe others will follow too,
It's time I came out about my true feelings, and how I feel about you…

The pain they enjoy is different,
To that they inflict upon others,
This type of pain isn't physical,
But still rather horrible,
It comes from the self-loathing and hate they put themselves through,
For enjoying what it is they do,
It's their own type of masochism,
An internal form of torture,
They can't show their victims this second side,
Otherwise they won't cower in fear and hide,
Because why would anyone be scared,
Of someone who willingly shared,
The fact that they feel guilt and sadness too,
Maybe even more than you do.

If I had a pound,
For every time I've felt alone,
I would have everything money can buy,
But nothing I'll ever want.
It really is a shame,
That you can't bottle happiness,
But an even bigger shame,
That you can't bottle love…

The night falls, as if slain by the sun,
All night-creatures cower and hide, for day has begun,
Whilst others are rising, we fall to slumber,
It's the only peace we get,
For our lives are just nightmares we cannot wake up from.
Make no mistake, we don't live these lives by choice,
Are destinies cannot be changed, we're just puppets with a voice.

I pace myself whilst walking with the ghosts of a tainted past,
On roads of lies and broken promises, paved with an intent of malice.
Next to the roads, flowers of hatred blossom, they're surrounded by vines that consume and constrict,
These are each home to countless thorns that all hold a poisonous touch,
The pain's enough to drive a man mad, so why do I beg for more?
The further I walk, the more I find my judgement's being clouded,
I feel as if I'm a marionette, being made to dance,
Somebody's controlling my every move, choice is no longer an option,
This feeling, it's confusing, a mixture of excitement and dread,
I don't want to stop, or carry on, I want another option instead.

I'm lost in a dark, dark maze,
Where are the lights to help me find my way?
I stumble and trip in a confused daze,
Trying to find a way out today,
I need to see you again,
I'm lost without your love...

There's nothing ahead,
Just a sky filled with black,
Then I hear something breathing,
Maybe I'm dreaming,
I turn around, but you aren't there,
Please come, I need you,
More than ever now,
But the more I wait for you,
The more I see you're not coming.

I need someone to rescue me,
Alone, I can't face my destiny,
I can't find my way,
I'm just lost in a maze,
The memory of how I got here,
Is a bit of a haze…

I admit it, I'm scared to be alone again.

Love is like a butterfly,
It's lifespan very short,
It briefly flies, and then it dies,
Leaving you to mourn,
Don't be deceived by it's bright colours and beauty,
For Love can pack a punch,
It might seem like a good thing, but I assure you, when it ends,
You'll never want to trust again…

I can tell I'm drowning, no-one's coming to save me,
Not even my parents care about their "special baby",
I can feel waves of panick, washing over me,
As I try to fight against the strong pull of the sea,
My strength is fading quickly, my energy's nearly gone too,
I can't hold on much longer, I'm done waiting for you.

People are always looking for something to believe in,
Something to blame when bad things happen,
Something to explain the un-explainable,
Because we're afraid of what we don't understand.
That's why people turn to luck,
But it's just an illusion, created by sad, confused minds,
And you can't let an illusion rule your life,
Even if it seems like a good option.

This is the one secret, I can never share,
I fear that this burden, is more than even you can bear,
It takes a strong heart to learn a loved one feels this way,
And an even stronger one to learn you're lied to everyday,
You ask me how I'm feeling, I tell you I feel great,
When really, I look at everything and feel filled with hate,
It's not my fault I can't stop crying,
On the inside, I feel like dying,
I fear that before anyone learns the truth, I'll be dead or near,
But that's okay, because I'm getting used to pain and tears.

I was so drunk on love,
That I didn't taste a single drop,
Now I'm left crying on the floor,
Gathering pieces of my broken heart,
You never know how lucky you are,
Until you lose everything.
I can't believe I let you slip through my fingers,
What was I thinking?
Not even alcohol can fix this mess,
If drunks meet guys like you, I'm done drinking.

I just feel so scared, of the one I should love,
I'm lying here, paralysed by fear,
As I listen to him sleeping above,
I'm a prisoner in my home, I need to break free,
Preferably before something else happens to me,
Oh, curse these chains that have me trapped here,
I need to escape, and leave this place,
I'm at a point where I can't even look at his face…