for all you have done
you earn a ticket
for lost intentions
and plans broken
for the unspoken words
and looks that could ****
for the nights that go on forever
and probably always will
for leading me to you
then letting me fall
desiring my body
then rejecting my heart
for ******* it over
before it could start
skip right to the epilogue
couldve been my favorite character
but when the plot had its twist
fields of white powder
took you up in mist
for calling every night
only to hang up if words didnt come out right
you were the moon and i am the sun
chasing
but youd never know how fast i can run
or how soft i can touch
hard soul
like the scruff on your chin
scratching the surface
never reaching within
for tainting the minds
of the lightest girls
trading lies and insincerity
for ribbons and curls
eyes blue and brown
now cloudy and red
puffs of smoke and cigarettes
we try to inhale
but fail
the fumes of your world
can not penetrate ours
a glance in halls
permanent scars
torn open and bleeding
through our smiles and waves
acting as if its all okay
to hold your gaze
or hold your hand
its all the same
your lips told lies
but i breathed them in
only to see if i would survive
but instead i sank too far to be saved
back into your maze
no exit in sight
no sense of self
only sense of flight
heavy chest
and compulsion deep
enough
to find myself
for you to keep
*******
you cant have me
in the back of your car, maybe
but never fully
your words mean nothing
when your actions show so little
scared, or insecure
its hard to remember why
i let your clothes hit my floor
your grateful dead t shirt doesnt mean **** anymore
cigarette butts burn holes in my mind
i guess thats how you snaked your way through
but get the **** out of my heart
no one invited you
if you hold my hand
you have my heart
roped down so tight
kept out of sight
you take me down
it brings you up
you float away
but here i stay
trying to piece together what you do and you say
too many seams left undone
but you dont care
you were never one
to notice
serene is how you met me
somber is how you left me
captivated
intoxicated
mutilated
your words like rhythm
but i should have never trusted the beat
dancing in your symphony
warned to change the station
but i turned you up louder
until you broke the speakers
repair
and climb
back out of my mind
but we cant turn back time