Looking out the window while
Tears run down my face
Seems like years have passed
Many, Many days
I stare at the photo on
The dresser by my bed
Empty on the inside
Feeling like I’m dead

I know I am old, and
Feeling sorry for myself
There is pain in loneliness
And sorrow in death
This is not my home I
Don’t belong in this place
My kids left me here
Because of my age

They say I get in the way and
The burden of me goes deep
When I drop things
I never pick it up
And their kids can never sleep
I scrub floors, worked my
Fingers to the bone
Trying to put them through school
And give them a decent home

A lady came to visit one day
I still know not her name
She said: where is your family
Is the reason still the same?
Seem like you haven’t had a visitor
In a long, long time
Things look worse to you
But believe me, it’s fine

My kids left me here, ten years ago
Why they left me here
I really want to know
I did my best to raise them well
Where they are now, only
God can tell
I got a letter from my daughter
Almost five years this day
She ramble on about her happiness
But nothing else to say

Why did they leave me
In this place call home
For ten years now I
Have been left alone
How can you put away someone
You say that you love
How can you leave them
Unhappy in this world

Will I see my kids again
Before it’s too late
Will I be able to picture their face
Before I walk through Heaven Gates
I will always hold them close
In my heart so dear
The only thing I know: is
That my kids left me here

You made it my child, my faithful son
Your work for me is well done
You gave to the poor
No matter what the need be;
And when they needed a comforting
Word; you always spoke of me

You shared me with your
Family and friends
You spoke of salvation unto the end
You shall live your life happy and free
Because of the honor you gave to me
You served me well,
You gave it your best
Today in paradise you are
My honored guest

You made it through sickness
Heartaches and pain
You spoke not a word when
They spotted your name
Hardship and trials, you went
Through them all,
You didn’t hesitate to my glorious call

You made it home, this is
The last round
Through all your goodness
You have earned your crown!

I love my dad
He’s the best in the world
He bounces me on his knee
Cause I’m his little girl
He holds my hand
When we cross the street
He teach me to say no
To the strangers I meet

My dad is very unique
He’s more than grand
When I need help
My dad is the man
I will not trade him
For nothing in this world
He’s my dad, and
I’m his little girl

The most important day in
My life you fail to come through
You decided to let me fall.
The time I needed you most
You hit ignore and didn’t
Answer my call
.I sat there in that corner,
And cried tears of pain.
As all the trouble and hurt
I held on to started to
Drive me insane.
  
And I waited as long as I could
To hear someone say
"Hold on, wait I'll be there"
But no one showed and
It hurt more to see no one care.
You were so *******
In your selfish acts
Or too tired you proclaimed
To leave your bed
  
And I was all alone
As thoughts raced
Through my head
And before me laid
Many options: pills, rope,
A gun, a knife.
Trying to find the quickest
Way to end this pain
I called life
  
So now it’s over
It’s done, and
Everyone asks why?
But she seemed so happy
I never seen her cry
But I did, you just
Never took the time to see
Time to realize the obvious
You over looked in me
  
So if anyone out there
Can hear me
Will you truly listen
Will you remember
Take the time so this
Doesn't happen again?
Will you remember to at
Least call or text or stop
By or just drop in
Take a moment to check
On your family and friends
Don’t just say you're thankful
For people in your life
But can’t recall the
Last time you came in contact
A life is something easily taken
That you can’t give back.

Life must go on no
Matter what Is real
There must be an answer
To the way that I feel
How do I stop the pain,
That burn deep in my soul
How can I be complete,
How can I be whole ?

No one ever told me that
Love could make me sad
And I did not know that
It could hurt so bad.
When I see him with someone
Else tears began to flow
Does he see how bad I hurt,
Is it possible for him to know?

It should be me that
He kisses every night
Am I wrong to feel this way,
Or could I be right?
I feel like I am stranded
Outside in the rain
How can I get over him,
How do I stop the pain?
So many sleepless nights,
And I hate getting out of bed,
I will always be with you;
That’s what he said.

Pain makes you feel like
You are already dead,
It makes you feel like
Rocks in your head
Can it be this serious,
Or is it just a game
Will I ever know;
How do I stop the pain?

This time of year I
Often think of friends;
Broken hearts and
Relationships to mend
Eating and talking
Setting around the table
Telling Christmas stories
Of a baby in the stable

Green pine trees with
Red, green, and blue lights
With present there to open
That every one might like
Bitter cold wind
Blowing from the south
Turkey and ham to
Fill everybody’s mouth

Christmas decoration hanging
Tightly on the wall
Dad playing Santa clause
But that’s not all
Setting on the table
Is cookies and milk
Mom got a night gown
Made of pure silk

A star in the sky
Shinning so bright
Eggnog and cinnamon:
And a merry good night

I was walking down the
Street one day
When I felt it in my heart
This feeling deep in my soul
I knew it must be God
A new path had come to life
And set before my eyes
Tears ran down my face
Because of how I felt inside

I could see my old life
But it was in the past
I felt something in my spirit
I didn't know I had
God was reaching out to me
Because I am his child
When I thought on his goodness
I couldn’t help but smile

I finally found something
That changed my whole life
My worrying days are over
Now everything seems right
God reached out to me
Saying child take my hand
All the things you
Wanted to know
You now understand

I learned a lesson, that
Changes are made
The price for my soul
Jesus died and paid
I am no longer the
Person I use to be
Thank God almighty
I'm finally set free