The mind holds terrible things
We wish no one could see
It tells a flattering story
As flattering as can be
Deep dark secrets fulfill
This space of air
When we think we are loved
The mind says; I don’t care

In this empty space we
Somehow call our minds
Deceive a person’s heart
And somehow keeps them blind
We will never know
The inner thought
Buried deep within
In a selfish twisted mind
That somehow has no end

In a quiet place is when
The mind works best
It always distinguish itself
From the boundaries
Of all the rest
It sees things that ordinarily
Shouldn't be
It feeds on overload and
And why, we cannot see

You thought lies, envy, jealously
Always come from the heart
It always starts in the mind
The utter most selfish part
There are two things in life
You will never ever know
How the mind functions and
And how evil in the heart grow

You would be surprise all
The things the mind occupy
And all the dark evil to
The heart it can supply
It buries things you simply
Would never and cannot see
It’s like a silent hill and
A hundred year old tree
So never underestimate
The power of the mind
It somehow brings out
The worst in all man kind

Setting on the sofa watching
A little TV
Things not in order
The way they should be
Combing my hair with one hand
And the remote in the other
A bake potato sat on the end table
With a little sour cream and butter
With everything that’s going on in life
Maybe I should be in pain
But tonight my heart smiles
So in life there is no rain

Looking at a photo taking
Many years ago
Feeling the exact same as I did
All those years ago
I have a heart that smile no matter what
I act lady like at times and
On occasions I act like a nut
Even when the sun stops shinning
And trouble stacks in piles
I will continue to reach new heights
Because of the heart that smiles

Even though the storm may rise
And water fills my eyes
It doesn’t stop the rhythm of this
Old heart that smile
Sometimes when you are going through
There’s nothing good you can hear
Place your hand on your chest
And you will feel your heart there
With every beat that you feel it’s
Giving you a message
Saying even though you are going through
A smile the heart expresses

A tender gentle breeze that blows
In the air
A warm fuzzy feeling that explodes everywhere
Boldly it tells us what and who to trust
Some are strong unbreakable and tough
Even in danger, afraid but yet smiles
The heart is remarkable traveling
Between space, time, and miles
This is what I think while setting here tonight
And a deep part of me know that it’s right
The heart is what judges us in life
It’s what God sees through his sight

It can let go of things you never thought
You had
It can make you feel good or condemn
You to feeling bad
Nevertheless; I can conquer the saddest troubles
And make it all worthwhile
Simple because God has given me a heart
That smile

Sometimes you think in life
That the end beats the beginning
And you look for your life
To have that fairy tale ending
You look at other people and
Say; you got success and
Tears fall down because your
Life seems like a mess

You fought many battles
But the war lies ahead
You should control your life
But your life controls you instead
Recording of negative thoughts
Play over and over in your head
When you should be sleeping
You toss and turn in your bed

If someone would care about
How you feel inside
The pain it brings when all
They have to offer is lies
There’s this numb feeling when
You find yourself alone
The hurt twist your head
And your joy somehow has gone

You take a deep breath and
And try to count to seven
As you push through the anger
Trying hard to reach heaven
Just one little word you try
Hard to whisper in prayer
If God would only answer
You know that he’s there

Struggling in this life to
Do that which is good
What you know is best and
What you thought you could
No one ever told you that
This life would be fair
No one ever told you that
The world would care

Now it’s your time to
Build high upon faith
Believing you is somebody
With the keys to the gate
Which is your life that you
Fight to keep straight
Built upon love and a
Long way from hate
Think about this the next time
You feel sorry for yourself
Life becomes dusty when
You leave it on the shelf.

I woke up this morning with my life in so much despair
I couldn't find my joy and my peace wasn't anywhere
So many things happening and going on in this world
It keeps me on my knees praying to my father above
Hatred on the rise, strange thing happening everywhere
You see things in life that you never seen before
Things that was long hid coming from behind closed doors
It makes me afraid because I don’t know what I’ll face next
I don’t know what’s coming my way or what to even expect

I don’t know what tomorrow may suddenly bring
Will it be sunshine or could it be a great change
I consider it a blessing just to see another day
Happiness fills my soul when sunshine comes my way
I wonder many times about the dreams in my head
Are they trying to tell me something, or am I misled
What is the answer to what’s going on in this world?
What happen to the joy, what happen to the love
I try to be uplifted in spirit wherever I may go
Will I ever find strength; Lord I just want to know

Maybe there is a reason why life is so tough
Why the hill is hard to climb and the mountains so rough
This is a pressing way just in life to survive
It’s a struggle to lay down at night and the next day to rise
I know where I come from but not where I am going
Life is always a lesson that’s too hard to learn
I can’t live the future by holding onto my past
I can’t shed tears without expecting to laugh
I don’t know if the life I live is only a test
Even I fail sometimes when I try to do my best
Since I don’t know much about these things
And the future is further than my eyes can see
Taking one day at a time will always be enough for me.

Why would you scream at me when you know it hurt
Why can’t you realize my heart loves you so much
Why call me nothing when I am your mate
Why we can’t resolve this before it’s too late
If loving me is so easy why I can’t see it
And if your love is plenty why can’t I reap it
Why do we scream and why do we fight
Where did our love go in the falling of the night…

Why can’t I grasp what you say is real
Why it doesn’t matter the way my heart feels
Why in this relationship we both can’t feel free
Why your eyes say differently whenever you look at me
I just want to know why we can’t be as before
Why it’s so easy just to walk through the door
Why you can’t hold me when I’m lonely and blue
Why it seems to always be about you…

Why did I think you would always be in my life
Why I don’t have strength day after day to fight
Why can’t I walk away and never look back
Why can’t I stand on the side line peeping through the cracks…
Why I can’t see that your love for me is gone
Why I can’t walk away and just leave it alone
Why I can’t see you are more trouble than you’re worth
And why I promise never to leave you on this earth
Maybe I can’t find the answers or walk away with the truth
But at least I’ll know why “I’m wasting my time with you”

It must have been your smile
That glowed across the room
It must have been the sensational smell
Of my rose and honeysuckle perfume
Or maybe it was your touch
So bright, happy and true
That makes me feel so happy and
Stuck in eternity with you

Where the sun always shine and
The moon stands quiet and still
Where roses smell so sweet and
And love is genuine and real
Where holding hands somehow mends
And the feeling of happiness never ends

The listening of a heart with gentle beats
And always wondering am I stuck too deep
Somehow I don’t mind being stuck in this life
One that’s joyful, happy, and true
As long as I am stuck in eternity with you

I may lose myself somewhere along the way
But knowing me; I’ll take it day by day
With the stars sending forth a bright ray of light
And the moon shinning upon our face at night
I don’t care where you are or even what you do
As long as I am stuck in eternity with you

Looking out of the window
While snow fell to the ground
Reminded me of a dreamed
And the peace of mind I found
Before I fell asleep I
Had many questions
In my heart
On how to love and
Somehow please God

I tossed and turned trying
To fall asleep
Pleasing God was like a tape
In my head on repeat
I tried to push away
The cold feeling inside
I remember about twelve O’clock
I finally closed my eyes

I dreamed I was in heaven
Oh what a beautiful sight                                                                              
Big golden gates, and
The streets shinned so bright
There were fluffy white clouds
Standing all around
I floated on air, and
My feet could touch no ground

When I walked closer to the gates
They began to swing open wide
Seconds later I found myself inside
There were Angels flying
Above my head
Welcome home child;
That’s what they said

You wondered in your mind
What it takes to please God
There were many questions
You planted in your heart
Up here there’s peace
You’re happy and free
Take a look around and
Tell me what do you see?                                                                      

I see a city with streets
Paved with gold
I see many of God’s
Created souls
Setting around the table
Eating honey and
Drinking milk
Even My gown is
Now made of silk

I see three gates in the south
West, North, and East
The saints setting around
Having a wonderful feast
I spent my time seeking
God the whole summer
Point me in his direction
I need to ask him something

I want to please him but
I don’t know how
I need to get an answer                                                                              
From God right now
The moment I spoke
A bright light appeared
I knew from that moment
My faith wasn't seal

I wanted to see his face
But the light was too bright
I couldn't see him, only feel
His present in my sight
He said its easy if
You want to please me
The answer is plain
And so simple you see

God began to tell me what
I had to do and it didn't seem clear
His voice began to fade and I
Couldn't really hear
His voice kept fading
Until I open my eyes
Not knowing what
To feel inside                                                                                      

Suddenly the sun through
The window shinned bright
And I remembered what
I dreamed that night
I wanted to know how
I could please God
This was something that
Always burned in my heart

I walked to the door
And I looked out side
Suddenly it hit me as
Tears ran from my eyes
I believe that I went to heaven
And had a conversation with God
I believed in that dream
With all my heart


He said the answer is plain
As can be
A voice whispered saying                                                                    
Just have faith in me
What I dreamed that night
Let me know it’s not too late
And to please God;
All I need is faith