Lying in this little room
Tied down to this bed
Men walking round in white coats
While insanity in my head
Laughing, talking, hanging
Out with my friends
Led down a lonesome road
Where I could see no end

One little taste, I
Swear that’s all I took
Now I’m lying in this little room
Strung out and hooked
I am dreaming of a life
I wish I almost had
But I’m lying in this little room
With my heart feeling sad

My friends are all gone
Nowhere to be found
They led me on a wild ride
And then they let me down
I’m in this little place
So cold, and dark
I can’t feel my body
I can’t feel my heart

I took a final vow
And took a new oath
No more little rooms
Or men in white coats
One night of happiness
For only a short time
Restraints holding me down
While I slowly lose my mind
My life now for everyone
Has become an open book
Lying in this little room
Strung out and hooked

One day I was hungry
And my family was too
So much of stress,
I didn't know what to do
I sat and wondered what
My next meal would be
No apples or oranges
To fall from the tree
  
I went to my neighbors
And ask for bread
Only enough for our self;
That’s what they said
The look on my children face;
I just couldn't forget it
The store manager said;
No money no credit
  
By now I was tired
And my eyes fill with tears
I have to feed my family,
But no one would give.
My children crying for food,
And I didn't know what to do
If only I knew some way
To help me pull through.
  
On my way home
I passed this church
I heard good singing
That I like very much
The doors of the church
I fasten my eyes
I walked slowly through
The door, on the inside
  
The preacher walked down
And took my hand
He said; you going through,
But God understand
The message was clear
As the bible on my shelf
I needed the faith
To believe for myself.


I prayed and I waited,
Setting quiet as a mouse
Mid-day the next day,
God sent an Angel to my house
A knock on the door,
I open with a smile
Please come in and sat a while.
  
He said; I tried to call you,
I did my best
To bring to you
this very last check
When you got fired from your job
They fail to give you your last pay
This is what brought me
To your house today.
  
It clicked in my head
What the preacher had said;
God understands, and he sent me bread
Tears ran down my face
As I walked up my stairs
It’s a miracle; God do answer prayers
He has saved me
From the trouble in my life
And for that I will
Sleep well tonight.

One night while watching television
I suddenly fell asleep
And when I open my eyes
This stranger I did meet
A wild looking creature,
Bolder then I had seen
Somebody shake me and
Tell me this is a dream.
  
I did not want to be here,
This is a mistake
Wake me; shake me,
Before it is too late.
The creature began to laugh,
As he laughs so hard;
You are down here to stay
So said the Lord.
  
You had your chance
To live a Christian life
But you didn't count on
Taking this deep sleep tonight.
Listen careful my child,
Don’t you hear the bells?
You missed the streets of gold
And ended up in hell
  
I started to scream and plead to God;
He never heard me as
I stood there in the dark.
People was crying and gritting
Their teeth; my night gown caught on fire
From the intensity of the heat
I yell out with pain saying
Forgive me, this is a mistake
I realize it was the devil when he said;
Take your place I appointed
You in the lake.
  
All while you live,
I stayed ******* your back
You down here with me
And there is no looking back
I showed you things
That drew you from God
Not giving you a chance
To receive him in your heart
Oh foolish one, how foolish could you be
I did not want you in heaven,
But down here with me.
  
You did not have to come here,
Or allow yourself to be fool
I do what I want,
I got nothing to lose.
I know how heaven look,
But I did not care
I want all of God’s people for myself
Maybe you should have loved
God without a doubt
The day I got unruly up there,
He simply put me out.
  
.I got all kind down here
With me, young and old
I am out to **** and
Destroy all of God’s souls.
As I talked with the devil
My heart did ache
My head hung in shame
Because I knew it was too late
I scream loud as I could
To the top of my voice
Suddenly I open my eyes
And grabbed for my heart.
  
I remember everything
I had seen that night
I had no time to waste,
To get my soul right.
I got one more chance
To try to save my soul
I got one more chance
To walk the streets of gold.
  
You may say that this is a poem,
And you are right
But what if you fall asleep
And go there one night?
Do whatever it takes
To live the holy way
Time waits for no one,
It must be today.

He took me for a ride one day
To get away from home
What started out as having
Fun, left me all alone
I wondered why a right turn,
Turned into a left
Where are we going, I
Suddenly ask myself?

Snow fell on the ground, and
Ice hung from the tree
There was a painful look in
His eyes, as they
Suddenly focus on me.
In the middle of nowhere
Forest and the weeds
I knew from the start
A tangled web was weaved

Forced out of the car
For no reason at all
Crying, begging, as the
Grass broke my fall
Lying on the ground, cold
And scared to death
Terror took my voice as
I tried to call for help

He left me in a place I
Never had to be
All this time I thought
The man loved me
The long road back turned
Day into night
I couldn’t find my way out
So I gave up on life

I fell to the ground covered
With ice and snow
Why he left me here I
Really fail to know
I remember closing my eyes
And hearing strange sounds
Shadows of fear covered
Me as I laid there
On the ground

When I open my eyes
I were lying in bed
Frozen from my waist down
With a cut on my head
Hunters found me there
That night in the nick of time
My boyfriend got arrested
For this indecent crime
It’s a long road back
To finding my life
But I will always remember
What I went through that
NIGHT!

This Christmas season will
Bring something new
Memories of an old friend
Kind and loving like you
Another year has gone
And finally come to an end
It’s a long story; of all the
Places we’ve been

It’s wonderful to have
These memories in mind
Just thinking about old times
Remember how the snow
Would fall for days
And the cups of eggnog we
Would always crave?

The fresh smell of pine and
Colored ornaments hanging
From the tree
Brought close friendship
For you and me
Memories are photographs
That will always last
They are of the present
The future and the past

I will always keep these
Memories in my mind
And we will bring them up again
Another year, and another time

Lying on the bed
Crying for help
The only other option
Is a slow painless death
She picks up the telephone
Talking to a friend
My life is useless
It somehow must end

There’s no joy in
Her soul today
Visions of suicide in
Her head do play
When she needed someone
To just be there
They turned their backs
They just didn’t care

She went into the bathroom
And looked into the mirror
Heart broken, lonely,
Sad and teary
No one would answer her
When she calls
No, not a soul,
Not anyone at all

She held up her arms and
Said, my life is a twist
Seconds later she
Cut both her wrists.
Laying on the floor
In a puddle of blood
Crying, and sad because
No one gave her love

While slowly closing her eyes
One more time she cried;
It’s over for me now
No more hurt inside
Before she planned
This selfish act
She wrote a note
And explained the facts

The note said I’m leaving
Not that anyone care
When I needed you the most
You were never there
You can’t find my life
Because Now I am free
No one ever cared what
Happened to me
I don’t have to hear
Or put up with lies
No one made me do this
It’s a planned suicide!!!!!!!

Yesterday I felt that I
Could soar up high
Today I feel down
I really want to cry
Yesterday I thought the
World was in my hand
There is so much pain today
I really don’t understand

Waking up today from a
Restless night of sleep
Only to find that yesterday
Has fallen down on me
Yesterday I had peace
And a warm gentle smile
Today I wear a frown
And nothing seems worthwhile

Yesterday I thought that
I could win this race
Today I find that things are
Thrown back in my face
If I could take yesterday
And switch it for today
The frown I wear upon my face
Would be a smile today

Yesterday I visualize the
Perfect life for me
Today my vision is cloudy
And there’s nothing left to see
Why is there so much pain
Traveling through this world?
What part of my life
Can I rely on love?

I cannot bring back yesterday
Because today is gone
Why did it leave me, and
Left me here alone?
Today on my bed
A lonely person lay
But I will still be trying
To bring back yesterday