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Lillian Sechrest Feb 2014
She sat next to the window seal,
Stared blankly out into the world.
Watching each raindrop until it reach the end of its course.

   She wondered where she went wrong,
What did she do to deserve this?
Why did everything have to happen to her?

   She's the girl with the smile that could light up a room.
  
   She's the girl with the personality so beautifully unique

   She's the girl with the heart so kind.

   She's the girl that experienced to much pain to realize this about her self.
Broken by the people she thought she could trust.
Eaten up from the inside out, from all the memories.
Lived with her regrets chained to her ankles.

   She cried to herself every night.
Feeling stuck. wishing for a way out.
But never found one..

   She dreamed of someone you only see in movies.
someone to wrap her up with comfort, and care for her.
That person hasn't come..

But little did she know..

   She's the girl everyone loved.

   She's the girl everyone wanted to be around.

   She's the girl no one could ever forget.

   She was to blinded to realize that these things were true. no matter how many times she heard them, she'd never  fully believe them..

  " She's" me.
Lillian Sechrest Feb 2014
Love me.
hate me.
Want me.
forget me.
You saved me from drowning in this ocean of lies,
just to throw me right back in.
assumtions were made.
rumors were spread.
the choice was there.
you didn't have any faith.
but you still took the leap.
broken was my heart.
now shattered is a better word.
Lillian Sechrest Feb 2014
Waking up with the sun spread across my face.
Lean over the side of my bed.
Moving at a slow pace.
Matted is the hair upon my head.
Make my way to the bathroom.
Putting on the face everyone see's
I need to hurry I'll have to leave soon.
Wishing I could just leave as I please.
Grabbing my things, heading out the door.
I need to catch the bus.
Left something I needed on my bedroom floor.
Can't go back to get it, my mom will make a big fuss.
I sit there in seat double my size.
In my own world not saying a word.
Awaiting at my destination is no surprise.
Looking out my window everything seems blurred.
Arriving to where we're forced to be.
I'll sit alone in the hallway.
Until it's him I see.
We both will say 'Hey'
Then we'll talk about anything that seems to fit.
loosing track of time until the bell sounds.
other then a few moment I don't like it here not on bit.
Walking on all new grounds.
lost the other half , working on it.
Lillian Sechrest Feb 2014
These four walls much like a cave.
In which I'm sent to if I misbehave.
The walls so seemingly bare,
Contain the stories of someone somewhere.
The air filled with sent of fresh paint.
Over all it's feeling quite quaint.
Unpacking my memories one by one,
Feeling the warmth on my skin from the sun.
The sounds of the cars speeding by fast.
Leaving my old home left a hole in my heart so vast.
Lillian Sechrest Feb 2014
Ich liebe dich..
We thought in the back of our minds.

Ich liebe dich..
We murmured under our breath.

Ich liebe dich..
We were to scared to say aloud.

Ich liebe dich..
We both knew it.

Ich liebe dich..
You finally shared it.

Ich liebe dich..
And I'll never stop..
Lillian Sechrest Feb 2014
Book of secrets book of thoughts.
Tell them nothings but tell you lots.
What's inside you'll never know,
The feelings I try not to show.

At my side throughout the day
So I can record the things I can really say.
A simple book of 5" by 8"
Bu I stay up writing in you until its late.

It's pages to me are so familiar.
But whats this I see? something peculiar.
It's not a word nor a letter,
What could it be something better?

Not made of silk, not made of leather,
Could it be a small white feather?
It's looks are so delicate,
It's looks so pure, am I dreaming? I'm not quite sure.

Then with a rattle, then with a shake!
Are my eyes fooling me is this a mistake?
All of a sudden it begins to form wings!
Then I hear a chirping like a song you could sing!

Oh tell me now is this a miracle sent from above?
God has gifted me with a pure white dove.
Not a worry in my mind, no regrets left to say.
Oh thank you God. Thank you for THIS day.
The dove is symbolic for purity. My "book of secrets" is filled with regrets and memories. But GOD has gifted us with the gift of purity in Him through His name.
Lillian Sechrest Feb 2014
"We're all beautiful, wonderful people.
so why did we become so fearful..?"
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