Every now & then
I get a little tired
of sitting up in bed
frustrated
within my head
and the gift
of instant sleep
is absent
to me
so my chest heaves
and I breathe
more
clouded air into
my cracking lungs
and

Every now & then
I get a little tired
of going asleep alone
and uninspired
but my bones only
forget
there are things to be learned
within my own
eyelids
and not
between the punctured
dream
of someone
else's
lips

I'm tired.

Will I still
see you there?

Everything's
Changed;
everything
Changes

and I can never
keep up

I'm always dragging my toes
across the already scribbled sands
of my past

and losing my breath
when I try to run
after their jet plane engines
gone into the distant sights
of the future

and the moments I am living in now,
without them here,
hardly seem like
*A present

I think I love her
and unrequited
it will stand,

except she's there
when I need her
and she compliments me and
makes me feel so sexi
       maybe I

am in over my head

I don't know
what love
is

but maybe it's
the tire in the
girls eyes
as she closes her eyes
and knows
her best friend
lies with her same tired eyes

that she
may never
kiss...

because those instincts
caused missed connections  
on craigslist

and those always stand:
unrequited

I never remember
   to gaze at the stars
when I don't feel right
and I've never been
held too tightly
at the jaws
of the shoreline
snapping
around my wrists
and I

Breathe....

back into the night skies