When no beat on
I'm nervous
Felling like eyes staring
All Voodoo but no cursing
Wait What??
See
Its hard to explain
Daily in the zone
To one day see the crowd
With out a shame
......
Not knowing this can be hard
Everyone can rap
I'm not talking about difference
That people starting it from the dirt
Searching and picking every scratch
..........
It gotta be the paper
Bleeding in your eyes
Cause your homie just made the shirt
Going to his funnel
Hearing people screaming
Oh my god
It still freaking hurt
Remembering all them times
You sat him down
Played a track
And Got to work

As I walk this road
Seeing demons and angles
All wanting the same

Meeting a couple strangers
Making hand shakes
Being posted with the bangers
......
Living life with trust
Man
I thought they'll never change up
........
So truly
They never did
I was just too stupid to see on how they love was

Can you be so bright as the sun
Or
So dark like shadows blur within the moon

Judge on who am
Even
What I may be
Thus
Until you see my past
Then
You may speak

Is it your friends
Or capabilities
That keeps you going
As
Being blinded
Towards your future

See friends die
See faces go
Hearing reports of dead bodies found
On the side of my ***** road
.......
Dead thoughts
Your head thought
Being cautious
Before the fed spot
Duck down
And vanish
Before you be a head shot
......
Cause
If they starting shooting
I'm having nothing to proven
Just trying to keep it moving
I drop dead
Turning my body
Like a DVD player
Trying to start a movie
.....
Man
I put myself up in that situation
......
I started walking
When they started spraying
.......
I had no jacket
When it started raining
.....
I still was soak
When the water draining
......
More pain
.....
I'm only gaining

https://soundcloud.com/bruhtrack02

I think I lost my touch
Tipping over trucks
Hoping to get run over a bus
Remembering my name as it fades away into the dust
........
Things I trust
I cant trust no more
People I loved
Show no love no more
Like how rich turn so poor
Drugs being high in stores
Not meaning the price
I mean high
Til I die
Got a rope
Tie into a tie
Stand on chairs
Checking side to side
To balance tears I leave in side
..........
Hang on

Why is me
To deal with family
Hatred in hearts
We want to **** each other in silent sleep
.........
People deal with different emotions
But I think mines way too deep
I trust no one
Its so thin
I have to count sheep
The fifth pass by as I imagine a rattle
Past dealing with torture
I remember getting beaten with paddle
Days were so tough
They would of actually killed me from changing the channel
Why Me

I take one turn
And take another
Two wrongs don't make a right
So I guess I can't do this for my little brother
.......
Everyday waking being his shining armor
Showing the good way of life
So when I leave
He can be the greatest father
With the greatest daughter
.....
I think about it everyday so I take two steps further
But still stuck in the same spot
Trying to show skills
what other people can not
Can't stop
......
This ain't no time to get offensive

Friends
Family
even strangers
Become enemy's at the end
That's why these words stay by me as a bullet in a chamber
Gaining all of my sin
..................
Cause I'm a type of guy who's stay's in the house
Making music drawing or writing poetry
Trying to find a way out
................
Of this depression
Stay to myself
Because every time when I tell someone
They listen but never getting my message
..............
Through life I'm stepping
For better or worst
The people I'm helping  
My body still hurt's
..................
From thinking of later depression
I'm hanging my noose
And i'm taking my weapon
Cause this is the only thing that I have to cope
Every session I think to myself
If I tip over this chair who ever would know
That's why this is my battle
And
This is my *****
Every time