what is it about
not having something
that makes you want it more
what is it about the sky
that makes you feel like youre all alone
what is it about the people that you love
that make you take nothing for granted
what is it about the ocean
that makes you never want to leave
what is it about life
that makes you cry with happiness and sadness at the same time

embrace to last you a life time
smell to send you flying
touch to get you electrified
kiss to send you to euphoria

spinning out of control
should i
lean into the skid
succumbing
to darkness
should i
grab the wheel
controlling
the light
should i
open the door
giving up all hope
should i
call out for help
rescuing myself
from myself

if everything is over
why do i still shudder when i hear
his name
run past the place where
we met and spent hours
listening to the
hatred in his voice and scarring words
that first september day
new books and clothes
all ready to be destroyed
by june
and that first day
knowing since the start
of my despise for you
but i couldnt do anything
so i was stuck
and scarred
until
june?

desperation
and loneliness
breathing down your neck
the parents of your brain
its not what i want

simply
lost
in
thought
spinning
with
no
control
and
finally
a
sto­p

that one person
that makes you heart
beat like a hummingbird
you cant speak
when your apart
you ache
for that person
who makes you the most
happy