i'm afraid of emotions
i'm afriad of time and emotions
not emotions like im afriad to show them
i'm afraid i'll forget them
i'm afraid of time because time will make me forget emotions
i'm afraid i won't be able to put the emotions im feeling in the proper little glass bottle to save so it could help me explain the amazing emotions i feel being a human
i'm afraid
i'm afraid i'll forget.

time and time again we lets the bales fall
by the time it ends, did we give it our all?
wincing at the winks of death, oh no it's colder than winter,
bittersweet, that's exactly what I'm having for dinner.
oh do you like it? - oh do you like it?
well too bad, it's my battle and not for you to fight it
it's my problems, you dont have to bite it
it's my bullet, you don't have to nike it
yikes and ****, bikes and flips
rail ways down to the beach liken it
to the railways going deep in that forest
trains go back again, like how i look back at the horrors
of older loves,
people change like the seasons on they T.V. screen
Waste away, binge watch, how could you not scream?
and new meanings to words that change it all
but how we gunna change if every year we drop the ball?

This fist full of life, warmed by paper
If I was to ever be cold, I know that money could solve it
Even in the deepest of economic depressions
Frequent days of labor, and frigid restless work until twilight

hold it back hold it back for moment
quite frankly, I don't know where I'm goin'
honin skills just for the moment
this **** is drainin my life and im broken

maybe i dont need them to be happy
might just do it for clout if you ask me
but can't say that it's blasphemy
but it's a blast for you,
and that's prolly why im always feelin' ******

sittin' in a chair, 4 a.m. and im frozen
lamp light off I just be knowin that you're hoein'
sounds at the door, waitin to be open
pounds on my heart, weight me down, no wonder i aint growin

it's like im fallin over digs but i aint volley
yeah I met a couple chicks but you didnt call me
you set yourself up, kamikaze
why'd let myself become this softly

So i, swing open the door, wind blows and a car hits it
don't know what to do, gotta be at work in ten minutes
Barely numb to the events, God really pushing my limits
Or it's the devil tryin me, with his ******' gimmicks

i dont know why you love me, you're barely even cupid
i dont know why you hate me, you're dreams are hardly lucid
I don't know why you **** me, your feelings are too fluid
I dont know why I stay, i just know that I'm too stupid

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