I drink to get you out of my head
But even with alcohol blurring up my thoughts
You are still the clearest one

You filled something in me
I didn't know was empty
Then you left

I dream about kissing you a lot
and it kind of makes me hate myself

It makes me hate you
a little bit too

two weeks ago you said
you liked me
and wrapped your arms around
me
and made me feel important
but tonight you changed the subject
and now
we're on opposite ends of the couch

i didn't want you to leave
even now,  i can't let you leave me
i miss the way you laughed at all my dumb things
and pushed up your glasses every time you smiled
i miss looking at your eyes
because they are the lightest blue
and would it be too cliche to compare them to the sky
because that's all i saw
when i looked into you

i miss the way you were comfortable
i miss the way i was comfortable

you're the only thing i can write about and it's been over a year

i want to hate you
i want to hate the way you made me love
your red hair and your stupid neck beard
and your perfect nose
i hate the way i miss you

i miss the late nights
and falling asleep to your breathing
(you were perfect because you didn't snore)
i miss the friendship
the laying around listening to records
or watching movies
i hate the way i miss you because i miss you in the worst way
i miss you in the way that it
just kind of fades into a person
you stop noticing it
then one day something makes me think of you
and there it is
i miss you all the time
everyday
without even noticing

it isn't an aching
it's just there
it's been over a year but i don't think i'll ever stop missing you

maybe one day i'll just stop noticing