Under the covers with my love
A smile curves on my face
Under the covers with my love
My teeth show behind my lips
Under the covers with my love
My mouth is wet and soft
Under the covers with my love
I bite the pink, plump fat
Under the covers with my love
I taste coconut lip gloss
Under the covers with my love
My eyes sting with tiredness
Under the covers with my love
My thoughts soak the cotton
Under the covers with my love
My body warm and peaceful
Under the covers with my love
I am dreaming of you
Under the covers with my love
I am desiring you

She breathes in, she breathes out,
She breathes in, she breathes out.
In, out, in, out, in, out, in, out.......
Quickening the pace,
Like I'm in a race.
In, in , in, in ,in , in, in, in, in.......
Holding it against her breast.
Frozen and stiff in her chest.
H, h, h, h, h, h, h, h, help me!
Can not swallow,
Or see a tomorrow.
No falling or rising,
Thoughts paralyzing.
Breath in my throat, it's stuck.
I know I must pluck, pluck, pluck.......
Until....I....can....finally....breathe!

Sleep, where for art thou,
Sleeep, I need you now.
Sleeeep, let me feel you,
Sleeeeep, I hear your coo.
Sleeeeeep, caress my face,
Sleeeeeeep, I feel your embrace.
Sleeeeeeeeep, closer you come.
Sleeeeeeeeeep, I am numb.

She kicks my shin really hard and I scream with shock and pain.
"Stop yelling, it's making me feel guilty!"
"But it hurts!"
"But I didn't mean it."
This pain is not subjective, it's not perceived, it's very real.
"You're hurt hurts me."
"I can't help that it hurts you, for I am living with my pain."
"I can't help that your hurt hurts me, I must live with my pain too."

God has a blurry face
No colour or race
No sound
No way to be found
No feeling
No way of seeing
No taste
No way to be embraced
No sense
No way to act in defense
No affinity
No way to femininity
No fear
No way to hear
No smell
No way to yell
I feel sorry for God

Go away!
Come back!
Leave me be!
Where're you going?
I need you!
I hate you!
Why do you haunt me?
Stay close to me
Guide me
I am guilty
I am guilty

Believe me when I say I love you
I tell you it hurts
I shout my anger
I confess my sins
I pinch my skin
I hold my breath
I defend myself
I shed salty tears
I whisper dark secrets
I hear demons calling
I look you in the eye
I show my passion
I clench my fists
I scream your name
I speak of death
I voice my fear
I lip desperation
I imagine my death
I plead for help
I pull at my clothes
I fall to the floor
I am bound and gagged
Believe me because I am telling the truth

Let's talk about today
I was stuck in my dismay
Anxious, trapped and sick
****** with a candlestick
I was a moth to her flame
I'll never trust her again
Victim or perpetrator
You are the fabricator
In the chapel, He's not there
Why is life so unfair
I'm on my bended knee
Why did you pick on me
It hurts and I am scared
Impotent, struck, impaired
I wear my cross and pentagram
For you maybe real or a sham
I guard against your cursed ways
I feel threatened by your gaze
I need to keep myself safe
With my reason and my faith
Now I see you for what you are
I've seen your full repertoire