Roses are red
Violets are blue
Valentine's a load of ****
And so are you

I ripped my heart out to make way for a new one 
the future is bright and the past is done 
I destroyed myself, yet I still brush off the dust
the new year's started and I've found someone I can trust 

countless exploits I've tried and failed 
and when all seemed destroyed my strength prevailed 
there have been days bleak, nights filled with tears
times I have broken down, myself I've feared 

and yet through all black, still I saw something bright 
a promise of hope that danced from my sight 
gathering my thoughts and my shattered pieces 
I snatched back my life and started ironing out the creases 

the downward spiral is but a tempest of inner fury 
all of a sudden you become judge, executioner and jury 
there were days where it was too easy to give up
there were days when I prayed my eyes would stay forever shut 

But I'm still here
still beating, still breathing 

I am my own god 
death will have to wait to start his thieving 

I'm still here, I'll shout it again, I'll shout it aloud!

I've re-started my life

and finally, of myself, I can say I'm proud.

Hey there pretty, I'm sorry I had to
fall in love

hey there cruel world,
I'm sorry I had to give up

- - -

HEY

GOD

oh won't you listen to me -

I've ******* had enough!

- - -

I'm throwing up the wall to block out the sin
for no matter how I try I never seem to win,

everything good is broken

now I don't even care

my eyes are bloodshot swollen

from the misery that I stare


when your heart beats

but you're not sure if you're still living

when you love others

but still they're not giving

you realise to yourself, maybe now's the time


to drop the final gear and just drive


surround yourself with emptiness, not much else to miss
take your shattered pride and give it a ****** kiss

rip out that septic ***** and replace it with something anew
mesh together callousness and loathing

by flesh, cartilidge and sinew

["You're Pathetic."]

- - -

I don't need no confirmation

I don't want no self control

broken hearts, slit apart

past and present to unfold

HEY GOD

oh won't you give me your hand to hold?

Your tongue's not needed to make me bleed

I've got razor blades to cut me

the drugs don't soften only silent me -

the writings on the wall


Oh Christ,


how long do I have to fall?

- - -

I took a bite of the apple and it soured in my mouth
again my mood has plummeted, dived South

the world stands with shifty feet and itchy gazes
as upon my mind the Archangel grazes

using his claws to separate my dying thoughts
his sly tongue lilts and distorts

The Pale God is dead, and so are all the other jokes
I grasped my nastiest and mercilessly choked

the nights out of my constant nightmares
but now I cannot think, now I am scared

I've destroyed so much I no longer cease to exist
just floating in this universe like a pathetic mist

I have tasted lust, I have tasted perfection

I have been betrayed by trust and ridiculed by deception

Happiness, if only.