Every day of my life
I ride a wave
Of furious explosions
Barely contained
Deep in a steel core of machinery
Easily propelling me
To speeds
That could rend to pieces
My body and brains
Yet, this doesn't seem strange
Am I insane?

I've been systematically offending everyone I know.
Cataloging my contacts all in a row;
Working my way down the list firing verbal arrows,
At each in turn.
Why would I?
I don't know.

I am the first among my family to develop
a securely precarious mental balance.
Proving time after time to all,
That no matter how stable I become,
I remain...
Unpredictable.

What will I say to the pastor of my church?
Something depraved and sinful.
What will I say to anyone who respects me?
Anything to prove them wrong.
What should I do to burn every bridge?
Destroy every friendship?
Begin a new war?
Whatever comes to mind to accomplish those goals.

I have no reason to offend you.
My life like a beacon representing what not to do.
I am a terror, a discomfort, a raving lunatic,
Yet there are still those,
Who keep me around regardless of all.
Why? Because my skills are impressive.
Despite it all, I am always useful.

My halved and broken soul aches for completion.
My heart yearns to play its beat.
A rushing capillary symphony,
Alongside the sweet song of my lover's lips.
Striving from toe to tip,
treading the infinite reaches of each other's eternal depths.

My spirit searches for the end
of nothingness...
For vibrance at the joining of our brief existence,
The exultation,
At the union of one final, blessed embrace!

Yet I'm trapped in shallow seas,
faced with my own puzzle piece.
Where nothing fits,
all rocky crags and jagged cliffs.
Never once catching glimpse,
Of another's jigsaw life that could resemble it.

I remain...
So chillingly alone.
Swept along a current of cruel time that will not relent.
A race to the end!
To find my one, my love,
For new life together, to begin.

I need you to fall into me
Stumble, please!
Slip and land,
In my waiting hands!
Please come along and breathe
The urgency back into life again.
That with purpose renewed,
I may finally stand,
Presenting myself,
A lowly sacrifice,
To you, my Goddess,
I would give my dying breath
My very life!
Leap between you and any knife!

O! For a single chance to trade,
Every drop of my blood in exchange,
For your perfect kiss.
I would offer up my disembodied beating heart,
If you were to bid,
For you to take and do with as you wish.

Unmask your tenacious wit,
And please consider this:
If you were the pedals, may I be your stem?
If you were light may I be your dawn?
If your heart is drowning, may I rescue it?
If your voice did bless this world and sing,
My love, my heart, my only one...
May I be your song?

I wish that we had met
Before my feet sank into cement
Back when I was free
I used to be
Someone in whom you might believe

At night we used to trip
When the world was just
A coin for me to flip
When you're young you never rest
Climb on the bus
If it's heads we wander north...
Get tails we travel west!

So much for those days of bliss
Between every breath a goodbye kiss
We took our chances
God, how I miss
That fire burning in my chest

I wish that you could see
The way it was
Back when I was still me
We'd climb the tallest thing in sight
Just to feel the rush
Of wind beneath our feet

So much for those days of bliss
Between every breath a goodbye kiss
We took our chances
Lord, how I miss that fire burning in my chest

So much for those dreams of mine
What I once had disappeared with time
So take your chances, just live your life
What God divides, men cannot bind

I wish that you were there
To catch the light
The colors in the sky
To beckon the sunrise
Along with us
Dream chasers never sleep
But doubters never rise

She's like an ecstasy trip
Rolling in silk
The cloth from her hips
Tangles around my feet
She beckons me...

Assaulting my senses
Weakened defenses
Collapse at one touch
Her fingertips brush my skin
Pull me within...

Candy red smile
unearthly light glow
To be showered in sunsetting kisses
So blessed and mystic

She's like an ocean of sin
Swirling around the prow of my ship
I'm sinking into her seas
Waves swallow me...

The blush of her skin
Blood rushing within
Only she can begin
The freedom that my soul seeks
Liberate me!

Candy red smile
Unearthly light glow
To be showered in sunsetting kisses
So blessed and mystic
Dimming sky lights
Changing all I know
We're treading so close yet so distant
So blessed and mystic

They dance in absence of light
These patterns of shadows
Hinting at the shapes of leaves and of stems
Movement, wind, of which we cannot glimpse
And of birds so slight of limb who take to flight

I watch the waltz, so slow and regal
Accompanied by whispering fronds
Listen to wind
In slithery sounds slips through the upper reaches
Of the tallest Texan denizens

From my shallow swing I gaze
Upon the dancing radiant pattern
And wonder in awe, in song, in rapture
How ever born was such a beauty
So simple and sweet, ever so placid
The games air and light play
The constant, subtle testimony of at work, a master.