Honestly .....
I'm not the guy girls think I am
I do try to save them from there hurtful fam
I want to bring out the best in them that's the plan
But I'm myself am not yet a man
I still have problems why I don't know
Sometimes I sit and the tears just flow
I put a wall because my self of steam is low
Listen to others feelings and take them on for me to tow
I can be harder to read than white ink in the snow
I'm broken I know
I think love can be pointless like a dull bow
Because a girl broke my heart it's still trying to grow
The things I'm put through I try not to lean on anyone
But the one thing I need is anyone
Anyone that says they love
Because mind is stupid and will check the box will everything above
Witch means I will buy them bears to hug
Lend them my jacket keep them warm and snug
Defend them from everything from a bug to a overgrown ****
Take on her emotions
So much left over like extra lotion
I'll cry for them
Be there only friend
With my life I will defend
As long as they say they love me in the end
That is my weakness that is my strength
I can be alone on anything else
Just need to share love with someone else ......

Last night I posted a quote saying I'm my own team
The same night I had a dream
Were I got hit by a car and couldn't walk
Dreams the night before my body was outlined in chalk
I think I know something is coming for me
Wether it's the devils inside or god setting me free
Is it a sign of selvish ways
Or telling me this could be my last days
I am quite afraid
My life Is not yet made
Haven't got a job or got paid
Never went to college and got good grades
Haven't gotten married to the woman I will praise
Haven't had kids that I can love and raise  
I don't think I'm yet saved so I am afraid
That I will die and the memory of me in peoples minds will fade

I hate I ******* hate it
Compare me to him
I ******* hate it
That should be a sin
You call yourself a friend
Open up to you and u still judge in the end
Try to be nice but can never win
Because I'm tied to to that as aka my kin

Never count on a girl Theyll poison ur world A world tht is now fallin down Take my life away nd dumo me down town No happy future no cap or gown **** me swiftly no pain or sound Clean my blood of the ground Wat i have found Is wen a girl leaves you ur heart is no longer bound Volnerable every girl wants to pound At ur heart Leave u alone in the dark So now i want the mark Of death Wnt my life to end faster thn it did start

It finally stopped the hurt
It can't get any worse
Don't call the nurse
As I fade away
Can't stand another day
Don't want to fell the suns rays

All alone once agian
i think im better off by myself thn with friends
cuz no one will be there in the end
but me maybe one two three a my fam
who gave a dam
friends will drift away like wind blowing sand
i tried to hold on to them but they slipped from my hand
breaking away like old rubber bands
faker than deaf drake fans
i know i sound mad
but im attually glad
that i at least know sumwhat of who i am
im not a kid but not yet a man
jst living life with a goal not so much a plan

I hate that your not there when I need you the most
Waiting for you so long my mashed low cud roast
I began to seep seep seep into a deep depression
Thinking this was a lesson
not to try to push the limit with friends
Hoping she would notice me if I bought tims
When I kissed her lips I felt something
I'm guessing now to her it was nothing
It hurt to see her and not talk
But to look at eachother then continue to walk
I even built the courage to ask her out
But now I know she'll say no without a doubt