I'm overwhelmed due to
my depression
my loneliness
my self esteem issues
my hatred towards everyone who surrounds me
and especially,
my feelings towards you

I constantly wonder:
how do you make me feel this way?

You make me feel sad
You make me feel mad
You make me feel angry
You make feel idle, dull, and alone
as if I will never love anyone again,
well not as much as I loved you

Yet, not everything you do is so bad
You still make me smile
You make me feel loved
You make me feel ****
You make me feel warm
You make me feel wanted

You make me feel special,
as if I'm
your soul mate
your partner
the love of your life
the girl of your dreams
the one

Well I'm still overwhelmed due to
my depression
my loneliness
my self esteem issues
my hatred towards everyone who surrounds me

BUT
my feelings towards you are as clear as they could possibly be
You changed me forever,
for good or for worse,
and you've taught me some things as well
I do not need you to survive
and I have more important things in my life to figure out

You are now a distant memory,
the fading light at the end of tunnel,
the bad grade I wish to forget
and a person that I wish I never met,
yet I am grateful that I did,
and I thank you for all that you've done
But now I just need to focus on me,
and I'm moving on, and letting go