Breathe deep, breathe slow,
I like to watch your hair shimmer in gold with the light,
How could i adore such a beautiful girl like you.
Even with your eyes closed, i could still see your smile,
You open up my eyes for hope,
All your love is all i ever known,
How could a heart like yours ever love a heart like mine?
Please stay,please live one more day with me
Promise me you will.
Please.

I wished you knew how much i would give to see you happy.
I wished you knew how much i would sacrifice to get your attention.
I wished you knew how much i am doing to make you realize your mistakes.
I wished you knew i secretly kept that last piece of chocolate which i haven't tasted so you can have it.
I wished you knew how much it took for me to stand by you through all the times you made me cried.
I wished you knew i would never give up on you.
I wished you knew how much you mean the world to me.
I wished you knew I spent hours praying for you to change to be a better person.
I wished you knew how i would give u my only piece of favorite blanket just so you can be warm,
I wished you knew it makes me so happy to see you fill your tummy with all the food i have to offer,
I wished you knew that your irreplaceable in my heart,
I wished you knew that i love to stare in your deep eyes for hours without having to feel bored,
I wished you knew i would do anything to sniff you one last time everytime we said goodbye,
I wished you knew how much you could make me hate and love you at the same time,
I wished you knew how important you are in my chapter's of life,
I wished you knew every step astray you take, my heart aches so badly,
I wished you knew that second to my family comes you,
I wished you knew how much i crave for your attention even when you pushed me away a million times,
I wished you knew how much fragile and sensitive i get to your piercing words,
I wished you knew i have always given my best to you
I wished you knew how much i long for the times you treated me like your one and only precious ,
I wish you knew every word here is written about you,
Sincerely from my heart.

You promised me you would take care of me like a precious baby
You promised me you would be there even when my cradle breaks
You promised me you would fix the pieces of my broken mental puzzles
You promised me you would wipe away my tears,
You promised me you will be my shell and shun away my fears,
You promised me there would always be days where I can smile without having to worry,
You promised me i'll never have to be alone,
You promised me and made me believe that there is always hope,
You promised to swim with me atleast once,
You promised to play that song with your guitar,
You promised me you'll buy me you'll buy me that strawberry cheese milkshake,
You promised me to get me that dress,
You promised me you will be the best for me,
You promised to not hurt me ever,
You promised me that I will be your one and only,
You promised me You'll always be my Guardian angel,
All i can say is you promised. With the ED behind every promise.
It's never going ** happen? I wish to know your promises do come true.
I'll wait as long as ever.

All they say is you've changed.
No one really asks you Why?
No one really holds your hand and guides you.
No one really wants to know you better, understand you.
No one really knows maybe you didn't change but you just grew up.
No one really cares.
Well, that's okay.
Because in the end you somehow knew this journey was always between you and God, never them.

Please tell me for once, I don't have to face this world,
With their piercing stares of hatred and anger,
Please tell me,
that the air I breathe in is filled with warmth,
not angst of discrimination
Or critics eager to have a say in everything i do,
Please tell me,
that for once I wouldn't wake up tangled in my blanket of unfortunate happenings that awaits me,
Instead, I just want to lie as long as I want in my bed with a scent of comfort and feel safe,
Not having to face the judgments of the world as I open my room door which will always be my barrier to protect me.
At least for this one night, I just want to lie on my bed not having to face the wreck of humanity, and embrace my little blessings,
Because, when dawn breaks I have to deal with EVERYTHING once more..

In the eyes of the girl who sat laughing in the corner of the room,
not worrying what the world thought about her,
captivating the world with her sincere personality,
unfolding her humbleness,
letting her guard down for all she could offer,
building no walls of defense..
letting the world watch her and clench their lustful desires on her ,
mesmerized by her inner beauty,
you quench for more of her delicateness,
sparing no innocence for her cries,
violently abusing her fragile soul,
Now what's left of her is an endless vulnerability to fear and hatred,
Traumatic  nightmares, permanent scars,
The worst part is you live everyday of your life with no slight regret,
not a glimpse of guilt,
Now she's left only with bits of herself, drying her tears every night as she pick up her leftover faith she has to painfully move on in this cruel world, without a single justice of her suffering...