I exist but I do not co-exist
With the world around me
I live in a shadow of loneliness that...
No ammount of buildings
No ammount of lights
No ammount of people
Can overcome

I live in a city full of souls
Longing for some connection
But no matter how
Connected
The technology is around us
Our souls remain untouched
Unwanted
In the scheme of life

I exist in a bustling city
But I do not co-exist with its inhabitants
I live in a bubble of
Me, myself, and I
In the bubble I am
Alone
But it is by choice

To leave the bubble would mean loneliness not by choice but by exclusion...

Am I not interesting?
Am I too interesting?
Or is everyone too caught up to notice
Me and my lonely shadow
Ever present
Ever looming

God is good, He is enough
But real connection with a familiar soul
Is what I long for in my solace

I have a family, I have friends
But the truth is this;
I am alone

God is here, He is
Listening
Watching
Comforting
But I am alone...

I exist but I do not co-exist
With the world around me
I go through the motions
But it does not seem real
I have conversations
But they have no apeal

I exist in a bustling city
But I do not co-exist with its inhabitants

I exist
But not really
Not truly

My heart is a puzzle made up of dreams
With a thousand odd pieces
Just waiting to be reached

Some are of fortune
Some are of fame
But the one that I'm holding
Says only your name

In a world full of choices
That are so hard to make
This one is easy
Because I know that we're great

With so little time
Yet so much to do
I'm glad that I'm choosing to spend it
With you

I have a hole inside my heart
A hole that's shaped like you
A hole so big I feel it ache
Every time I move

At first I didn't notice
I thought my heart was strong
I figured I was happy
Even though you were long gone

Physically I felt okay
Though my soul was torn apart
I pretended everything was fine
And I even played the part

I lived my life from day to day
In a cheerful, up beat manner
I was caught up in a world of firsts
And got lost in all the glamour

But as soon as I got home again
My heart began to crumble
Slowly it got worse and worse
So bad it made me stumble

Stumble over every thought that drove us both away
I wondered if I'd ever feel
Or love again someday

So now I live looking for a piece that will fit inside the hole
Anything that will complete my hollow little soul

Ideally you would mend me
By coming home to stay
But fantasies are empty dreams that keep despair at bay

I know that you are happy now
And I'm just a distant thought
The only thing I do regret is that I never fought

If you ever think of me
Remember that I tried
To give you all the love and joy
That a woman can provide

I loved you then
I love you now
And tomorrow is uncertain
The hole might grow or disappear but you will never be forgotten