I focus on others instead of myself
their actions, their words, their votes, their thoughts
I am losing my mind, filling the space
with anything I can find,
filling that aching emptiness, feeding the craving with
Belonging
Belonging to the wave,
we are so great, so powerful, together
Belonging
to a movement that can be nothing but just and righteous
I am also just, I am also righteous, I am also strong -
our hand moves as one
to drop our papers in the ballot box
to sign the petition
to tear down the sign
to throw the bottle
to smash the car
to shove the man
to pull the trigger -
what has happened to me?
I don't know who I am.
I don't think I ever did.
I am lost, lost and drowning,
drowning in this sea of right and wrong
the lights are off, I can't see one from the other in the dark:
finally, a light I can swim to! finally, a hand I can reach-
and reaching out
I find comfort. I find peace. I find strength
because here, I belong
in the hand of God.