I loved you
because when you said, “let me make love to you”
you sounded like a drunk
pleading for one more drink
I loved you
because even after I confessed
my dustiest secrets
you still looked at me like I was
heaven’s missing angel
I loved you
because you thought
the scars on my thighs
formed the most beautiful constellations
and you wanted to map out each one
I loved you
because you loved me
more than I ever could

           I left you
           because you loved me
           more than I ever could

you stole my heart without permission
but secretly
I left the safe unlocked on purpose.
your love was a welcomed remedy
to the plague my life
was slowly becoming.
I adore you
I adore you
        I adore you

you stole my heart without permission
but left
quicker than I could stop myself
from becoming wholly enchanted
by your exquisite being.
I became addicted to someone
who ceased to exist.
I miss you
I miss you
        I miss you

you stole my heart without permission
and I wanted it back
I washed my skin with scalding water
to try to burn you away
but you are forever on my mind
and there is no known remedy
for your memory
I hate you
I hate you
        *I love you