you can't touch the things that matter most
anything we physically grasp is meaningless
because love and family is all
no higher, more precious asset exists
yet we neglect all that can truly be ours
for futile claims of something that never was

Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading
From all the things that we are but are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars and make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky and open up to
The ways you made me feel alive, the ways I loved you
For all the things that never died
To make it through the night, love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

The desire I felt was all along a lie
A fool, I was naive to even try
I didn’t see past the handsome disguise  
He now sows the seeds of my demise  
Taking advantage with any chance  
Divulging my soul with every glance  
He soils whatever I know to be mine  
A ******* turmoil from the dawn of time  
Even my thoughts are thoughts I don’t make
And it feels like I’m dreaming when I am awake  
He may look like a man but he’s no human  
He turns all he encounters to ruin
He slays truths into tiny remnants of nothing  
What was is now lost-lies are more becoming

This weight on my brain is unforgiving
no matter my efforts or pleas
Something strange is in me living
with misfortune and unease
Reveling and feeding on my struggle
could be some strange disease  
In the process of reducing me to rubble
it's like a curse marching on me
But I try to find pleasure as I tread on
I battled my way over the seven seas
And the pleasure I found in pain still felt wrong
But I refuse to go out on my knees

I thought about doing something today
Anything after this is just a delay
I dont want to exist
I dont know how to resist
Why do my thoughts burden me with this
Why cant I be hit by a bus, shot, struck by lightening etc
When it comes to ways of dying, there are a plethora
But I must wait for all this to play out
Been waiting a long time to live with no doubts
Why should innocent people die if I wanna be the one
Stop killing kids, i'd gladly take a stray bullet from a gun  
But I know that day won't ever come
Because I will live forever alone loved by none

Some say the world will end in fire,
Some say in ice.
From what I’ve tasted of desire
I hold with those who favor fire.
But if it had to perish twice,
I think I know enough of hate
To say that for destruction ice
Is also great
And would suffice.

lonely doesn't express this hollow feeling  
lonely can't define why death is appealing  
lost my bearing, now i'm stuck again  
I've been lost since i don't know when  
seems that I took the wrong path  
but everyone knows you can't change the past  
thought I followed the right directions
but this road is long with no intersections
so now i'm trying to find my way  
probably be wonderin til judgement day