My most peaceful moments
have been when I was alone.
In my secret hiding spots,
the brush behind a pond
or
miles down an empty beach.
At night
when everyone else is asleep,
ontop of the roof,
Watching the sunrise
watching the stars.
My most peaceful moments have been when I am lost
in my own thoughts.
when I have time to think about life
when beauty and silence combine
and create peace
in my heart
and
peace
of my mind.

Night's like these
when I can't sleep,
I think about what could be wrong with me.
I think in rhymes
I think in song
I think as if I'm writing a poem.
I stay awake until the sun comes up
I stay awake until the birds are singing
I stay awake as the moon rotates along
the earth
and though life is going on,
Between the time of dusk and dawn
the world is still
and quiet
and it's just me
thinking.

If I lived in paradise
I would spend all of my days
letting the sun soak me into its rays.
I would swim under waterfalls
and into caves
I would play on the beach
and collect shells all day.
If I lived in paradise
I would build castles in the sand
and I would find you
and we would hold hands.
We would surf and hang
and chill with our friends
our family would be there too to lend us a hand.
We would all barbecue
and watch the sun go down.
Thankful to be living in paradise and not in some busy town.
We would all laugh and
tell stories and
drink beer until
it was time to go home.
And then me and you would be happy to be alone
we would go to the shore and let
the water soak between our toes and tell each other secrets that nobody knows.
We would begin to count the thousands of stars
and feel so lucky that this love is ours.
I would wonder, 
How did I get so lucky to come to this place?
I wonder this as I gently touch your face.
You lean in and kiss me
and suddenly it's clear.
My paradise lies in you
and I begin to tear.
Not of sadness but because of joy
for I finally realized
that you are the boy  
I gave my heart to
and so my days spent in paradise
is a life spent with you.

I believe in you
and I believe in me.
I believe in the way
the sun dances upon the sea.
I believe in wishes.
And looking across this wide bay,
I believe in promises
I will work hard to keep each day.
I believe in rain walks
and getting ***** in the mud,
I believe that all these things
is what makes life so much fun.
I believe in love.
And I believe in trust
but most of all,
baby,
I believe in us.

I held your hand
as you told me the news
just as I was feeling like life was to good to be true.

I held your hand
as she shaved off your hair
I said you looked beautiful as you broke down in tears.

I held your hand
as you threw up each night
I held it
extra extra tight.

I held your hand
as you cried in pain
I held my tears in
to give you strength.

I held your hand
through it all.

And I am so happy to say
we never listened to death when it called.

When the world is quite
it's just me and the stars.
I often look up
and wonder where you are.
If you're watching me
as I am missing you.
Or
if your the slight breeze
I feel blow by my cheek.
In these moments when I am overwhelmed by life
and feel like breaking down to cry,
I wish you were here
to comfort me when no one else cares
And to tell me everything will be okay.
Just as long as my faith never goes astray.
I love you and I know you are in a better place
your presecnce is forever laced
in my heart
and runs through my veins.

I want to love you
and I want you to love me.
I want to watch a million sunsets together
and never have to wonder what "could be".
I want to make you smile
more than I make you frown.
I want to be the one there
when your world turns upside down.
I want to make memories
and I want to grow together.
and I never ever want our love to wether.