Deep in me
I'm fading away
What makes me myself
No longer exists
Into an abyss
My eyes search for what is
But silent hope
Unfolds once again*
#death #Jesus #cross

The world helped me change
I keep my heart locked up

My aim is never the same
Cause I grow constantly without distraction from lames

Honestly, my lane is surrounded by them
They look wondering, who is this man?
Although I'm clouded by fear, I do what I can

My meekness is my weakness
But also the raising of hands

I can't help myself
I'm only the spirit of man

But this is my end
The last time I could be mentioned

After a man lays down his life
Others earn them a mission

And this was my sentence
The connection of letters and words
To unify every distance
To silence the talk
With love without limits

On the other side,
Attentive ears in tuned with my coming

Knowing every step
Produces something beautiful to say

Seeking something
Victorious after achieving the crown of life

Listening to stories
Of followers who conquered and found the light

I need a bigger audience
That's what I tell myself
I'm living by myself
In a room full a people
I'm invisible
Then I realized it's spiritual
My cross is different
A cross none the less
I stretch to give my best
I'm out of breath after every single test
My emotions are like oceans
Wavy and unstable when a storm comes through
Jesus, your armed with truth
At least I know that truth
Or believe it
With my own eyes
I never seen it
Or seen a demon
Or anything like that
Which leaves me wondering
Where are my eyes left at?
Still not fitting in
Nothing has changed since I was born here
But I'm not given in
My dream is not born yet

My hopes are deemed impossible
I live in places where immortal races see light as basic
They shine brighter than the sun after shades are removed
My grove is slower than the average
The baggage I hold is lavish
A ticket to my heavenly home
My beverly hills, where adventurous thrills are normal
I'll storm out of this body if I had too
My surrondings are like mountains
But I've amounted to a giant
Crying in my soul, cause I grow bigger than possible
Limits want me to stay with the course
But I'm bored of the usual. I know I'm unusual
My imagination is craving attention
The door to another world slightly opening
Standing and hoping
Praying and coping
One eye on my dreams
One purpose for me

The day my problems became visible

When I thought of my sufferings
They instantly came over me

I saw it was good cause
My ambitions are always growing

I desire to test my treasure so
I bring life to every harming weather

The storms that send fire through my arms
And swarms of confusion into my presence

In this I feel the essence of father
Always patient with his creations
In every fault that stems from our hatred

The true meaning of greatness;
Bearing under every struggle in hope
With no room for complaining

I'm aiming for perfection
The understanding that every
Obstacle is the chance for a lesson

The knowledge of power
Which turns ignorance sour
When applied, captures the reign over blessings

And this was the message;
In every hurt, search for some leverage
And then we'll be reverent