I look at the photo of him and I,
thinking how much I want to be with that guy.
Lately things have been changing,
but seeing him gets my heart beat racing.
The feeling he gave me was more then amazing,
I won't just let it go I'll keep on chasing.
Losing him would seem to only hurt for me,
and that pain I'd rather not foresee.
Thinking of all the sweet things he said,
I start to wonder if there will be more up ahead.
I'll always be around even until the very end,
no matter what I'm here even if I'll always remain as just a friend.
My hopes are more then high,
and for only him I will continue to try.
I'll keep on fighting long and hard,
since losing this fight may leave me scarred.
These wonderful memories left inside of my mind,
they will be with me forever for they were sweet and kind.
I fear of losing this love I found,
I'll hold it all together so tightly and bound.
Though problems will come and go day by day,
I refuse to leave for my heart wants to stay.
He gave me a reason to feel happy once more,
showing me he actually cared left hopes and no longer a sore.
Having this time to realize what could be lost,
I'll keep on trying for this may be a high cost.
He gives me nonstop butterflies that when I see him they begin,
but he may never understand that being with him is the happiest I've ever been.
He has made me laugh, cry, and fall so hard,
to only him I've let down my guard.
He's constantly on my mind with all of the memories I keep,
I've stayed up all night thinking of him unable to sleep.
We made it through arguments over any unimportant thing,
and I can't stay mad when he makes my heart sing.
I'd give anything to fall asleep with his arms around me tight,
and waking up to his kisses it just feels so right.
I've fallen so hard it seemed so fast,
still falling harder with each day past.
It seems as though I'm not good enough,
especially since our situation's a little rough.
Thinking of the little things he'd do that'd make my entire day,
I'd only wished for him to be with me and finally stay.
Waiting forever or for only a short period of time,
I just can't give up it'd feel like a crime.
It all doesn't seem real since I have fallen in so deep,
it seems like a fairy-tale dream within my late night sleep.
I've come to realize what is now at stake,
my heart one day he'll most likely break.
I believe that i should just be happy with what I've had,
and dwell no more on the painful heartache that leaves one sad.
With him I've had this amazing feeling, the feeling of falling in love,
it feels as if I'm floating on the clouds just right above.
For my hearts longest want I must ignore,
until he's ready I'll wait some more.
If this becomes unable to repair,
I will hope to stay his friend since I will still really care.

oh dear love what did i do,
i blame myself for losing you.
truely the fault is at your feet,
losing this fight i'm feeling defeat.
currently my feelings are more then confused,
took advantage of my heart leaving me used.
completely upset and let down,
by not noticing this from the start i feel like a clown.
why did i let myself do this,
i fell the second we had our first kiss.
the three words that mean a lot,
i thought you meant it i guess you did not.
how could you say "i love you" to me,
when you knew dating me was never your prioraty.
i'm completely broken,
with every word i say i'm still choking.
never wanting to feel this pain anymore,
hurts so bad it's hard to ignore.
starting to let go of you,
i don't know what i'm going to do.
a huge part of my life you were to me,
i'm completely lost without you can't you see.
i lost & you won,
now that you're done.

you said you were holding back to not hurt me,
faking you're feelings towards me, oh isn't lying's so easy.
i was oblivious to the fact that i was unwanted,
now by every memory of us i am haunted.
for you i was never good enough,
the fact that i fell in love has made this so rough.
some things said have a time and place,
telling me the truth instead of those three words i wish you could replace.
completely lost i can't keep it together,
you've impacted my life forever.
never thought you'd break my heart,
without warning just ripped it apart.
honestly it wont work just being your friend,
even seeing you will still hurt in the end.
like salt in a fresh sore,
just when i thought it was done it will hurt even more.

what happened to you and i
we're no longer the same and i wonder why.

my heart was so full
i know my love for you was no bull.

you say the words as if it's the truth
i'll find out the lies like a detective sluth.

wishing your feelings didn't change
not sure if they have but things have been strange.

you're hanging out with other girls
it hurts so much yet you still make my heart do twirls.

the millions of butterflies you give me inside
they're still there and haven't yet died.

our love is almost crazy
i'll never give up for i'm not lazy.

i've been with you through it all
i just can't let this love fall.

understand why i'm so sad?
remember when we were both so glad.

you've got your things and i've got mine
maybe we can work this out and it'll all be fine.


i wonder what you'd do
if tomorrow i were to just dropped you.

would you fight for me to stay
or let me go to longer be in your way.

honestly i really do care
if only this life was a little bit fair.

caring so much to fix this i will try
though i feel like you'd just let this love die.

i put all this effort in
to lose you forever would be a complete misfortune.

i still believe that you're an amazing boy
i just ask that you not use my heart as a toy.

falling for you
was the easiest thing i've had to do.

i'm tired of the **** you pull
not putting up with you being so cruel,
but if i were a total fool
i'd drown this love in the bottom of the pool.