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Apr 2011 · 528
choice
Lauren Ellis Apr 2011
I'm the choice at the back of your'e head.
I'm the one you think of when your'e down.
But you'll never have me.
Cause you're worth so much more.
so i'm just going to wallow in my sins'
cause i had it with all the fake smiles.
that ruin our lives
Mar 2011 · 508
i dont know what to do,
Lauren Ellis Mar 2011
you make me burn.
the things you tried to do to get away,
you din't tell me,
why?
you make me burn away
away in side,
i'd do anything for you,
but its all cannon fodder you say.
i hate what you make me feel.
i hate that i can't live with out you.
it's pain inside,
you need to go,
but i cant let you

I'd go through the fire and back.
but you'd watch me burn away.

you don't want to admit what we have
Mar 2011 · 513
fuck it.
Lauren Ellis Mar 2011
****** it.
That’s the feeling I have,
Let us see what is in store
The whole world,
They make us go to college to get and education,
You want to do your own thing,
So you just write away,
For no one to see,
Wishing you where good at something
Not anything,
Getting put down all the time,
Your family,
Your friends
Feeling worthless,
But you have the whole world waiting for you.

Just wait and see,
It might get better
It might get worse
What the point in waiting for tomorrow
When you have today
Feb 2011 · 423
forever and eternity
Lauren Ellis Feb 2011
Builds up inside me,
i cant hide it
i really need it.

One wont hurt.
one turns in to two,
two turns in to more,

Im on the floor.
Need your help.
im turning in to a wreck

Someone get me a knife
to end this life.
call me what you want.
my blood will be on your hands

forever of eternity,
could you live with that?
i know you could

your sick inside
twisted games you play
all the things you say.


build up inside me
you make me sick
but i know you don't mean it.
my blood on your hands or ever and eternity.
Feb 2011 · 440
20/2/11 23.30
Lauren Ellis Feb 2011
As i lay here i think if your thinking about me.
but i'll be wrong,
so i listen to our song.
i need you by my side.
so i don't have to hide.

Are you my friend or foe,
this bothers me so,
Not seeing what to do,
But i'll live through it
for all i have done,
it is left unspoke
like the words upon your lips
watching you choke on your feelings
when your with me do you think of her?

You need to decide ,
cause its breaking me inside.
so i write away so it goes away.
Feb 2011 · 417
like a game.
Lauren Ellis Feb 2011
Ill play you like a game.
make you think your the one,
i treat every girl the same.

You'll need someone to catch you,
cause i'll let you fall,
just like all the others

you can't let me go,
cause you want me in your life,
your up for playing the game

life's like a game
play it right,
or loose the fight

i'll play you.
like a game.
Feb 2011 · 691
paint.
Lauren Ellis Feb 2011
paint on your face,*
it makes you happy even though your dying inside.
smile every day even though you want to run and hide.
people think they know you,
their far from it,
you just want to hit out.
but your scared,
so you pretend,
cause its better that being like this
anything is better than being like this.
Feb 2011 · 654
"if a fucks just a fuck"
Lauren Ellis Feb 2011
As my heart beats,
i feel hot breath on my cheek,
hands going down,
screams going loud,
so wrong but right,
not putting up a fight,
as the light breaks,
im up and gone
for another heartbreak
i kiss their cheek.
its ******* me up more and more
im just her *******
Feb 2011 · 315
natural?
Lauren Ellis Feb 2011
Its so wrong what I want to do,
Kiss her lips,
Run my fingers down her body
I know it’s not natural but it is to me
She wants it I know she does,
She’s more up to it than me,
She can show me the ways she moves,
We can move in time,
Only if we could,
But everything good always ends up heart break,
If its just a **** she wants she's going to break.
No one is strong as that.
You paint on your mask and try to smile but the only joy you have is when your breaking someone else’s heart
Feb 2011 · 567
i need you
Lauren Ellis Feb 2011
As i walked to feild were she stands
i saw her, her eyes blue like the sea
she laughs and smiles when we talk
this should be how it is but her love goes to someone else
as we walked along the feild she took hold of my hand,
it felt so right but so wrong at the same time,
i know she's not mine,
but she wants to be i can feel it,
as its time to go she pulls me close and whispers in my ear,
"i need you".

— The End —