Once, I wanted to give
Thirteen Reasons Why
And bury myself
While I was totally alive
Six feet under the ground

Once, I tried to step
Out the window, Just
To feel myself fall
Through thin air
Only to smack
On the cement below

Once, I failed to lift
A simple weight
Even an inch
Above my chest
Before it cracked
My collar bone.

Once, I broke
Thought it was ending
Told them to grab
The bullets
Fire at will

And once, I asked a boy
To take my hand
Spin me around for
A short dance

Then, I promised myself
Never turn into
One of those poets
Writing dedications
Again and again to them
Because by the end
They became jokes

Once, I told someone
I never wanted to fall in love
Over and over and over again
Because they said
I'm never going to be good enough

But once, I never said
This was a love poem
Maybe it's an appreciation one
Cause once, I asked you to dance
And for some reason
You decided to say yes

Thanks for that

And for now,
Thanks for everything we've become
Let's take this journey longer
Go for all the risks
Make these memories last

Once, I want to hold on
And never let go.