i thought you loved me

the night that never happened
what a blur
the morning that never came
what a blur
the clarity that never followed
what a blur
your love
what a blur

you made the sky cry too

I love you so much
I can’t find a perfect song

I love you
but I don’t hate myself

it’s like everytime my heart is about to leap for you, it free falls instead into an abyss of your lies

there's a certain type of pain
that leaves you helpless, hopeless
I can withstand any pain
just not this type
not coming from you
on the phone last night

I've been having to catch my breath
a lot these days and it makes me wonder
if the reason is my holding it in
these past two years,
but it also makes me wonder
if someone has been taking yours away,
which makes me wonder
if I want to be breathing at all