more wrong doing
            increases the darkness
with out a lighter , unlit as it sneaks upon me as your shadow does your back
                   first bra
                    then *******
         SKIN!
                     "what am I doing?"
" does he love me?,
like me?"
         palm to palm
         lip to lip
the shadows grow bigger as we kiss
maybe I should , maybe I shouldn't
as the sun rises and moon fades the guilt suppresses me.
                 cease the moment
it's over.
it's all over.

:lasting for only a limited period of time; not permanent.

                   stand still
                move forward.
all these emotions I feel are all temporary
       w\ out being affected by what the world has to offer for a young black woman; remaining                                          ,             ­       , confident
              courageous
despite the come and go situations that sneak upon me.
          temporary.
responding rudely based off emotions im entitled to feel for situations that won't matter
year , two years ,
three years etc.
it's temporary.
I'm temporarily stuck. temporarily confused.

gazing upon the
     trees
thoughts about last night still
seem so vivid
            everything gone
             emotions gone


     am I making a mistake?
           will I be punished?
                why are the sinful things so golden?

wondering if he can hear me
his voice is my voice my voice is his voice

but why is it so hard for me to hear him?

actions, process , just thinking.
the actual thought alone is beyond overwhelming
          the force,effect alone are what keeps me sane
         inner thoughts are soulful
                    peaceful
            no one or nothing can take away my mind.
                   thoughts
       ideas , opinions , urges
occurring suddenly just in my mind
                   " can she hear me?"
                      "is she listening?"
trees moving
water dripping
cars moving
storms roaring
      I hear it all.
             something's  louder
             something's lower
i adore the mind

..........I just want to remain sane