After rain fall the mountain called my name, seducing me with rain drops glistening ever so softly with sun lit beams upon winter leaves. Mother trees were protecting me from what was up above her leaves but as I reached that mountain high I got lost in the mist cascading through the valley and into my mind. And from beneath my feet rose steam to meet with father sun kissing my cheek, then I cried "At last  I am home, my soul is free now I may rest my head to sleep!"

Salted caramel tears drip past your cheeks
Abandoned carousel demeanor
I saw you dancing in the water
For weeks
Like a feral child
Left alone
To salvage
Your own
In the ferry boat
I saw you sleeping
Dreaming
So peacefully
When you awoke
I told you I would take you away from here, but to your amusement
Gutter like grin
Cotton candy bruises
And grease on your chin
You told me no one could ever ever ever take you in.

Don't worry too much darling,
That wretched sensation
You're heart sinking
From all the effort put into a love that didn't see your worth
it shall pass
But let yourself fall
Wallowing
in your tear soaked sheets
Recognize that the pain
Will take you somewhere
You have never been before
Yes, it will hurt. It will sting
But Let yourself fall
Aching
To the ground with gravity
Crushing you down
It's okay to mourn
But don't let yourself dwell
Don't forget about
The worth within you
Flowers dancing in a meadow
Molecules combining
To create such a beautiful being
Don't let yourself swell
Let your heart shine brighter than the sun,
For darkness an light are one

A dying forest needs a forest fire
The flames smoldering hot
Slowly decomposing the weeds
As well as the living inhabitants

Nothing is forever
Once the flames have gone
From the ashes and remains
Arises new life and abundance

It is then that the lonely forest
can flourish in rebirth and
become stronger than before.

A lonely human needs suffering
The pain smoldering hot
Slowly tearing at your heart
Decomposing the ego

But nothing is forever
Once the dispair has gone
From your soul
Arises knowledge and strength

It is then that the lonely human
Is free in rebirth and
Becomes stronger than before.

My head is a mess and I am feeling rather stressed.
They say a friend in need is a friend indeed
but who needs friends when you have some ****,
it will surely guide you to sleep and each day you repeat,
But when your ill you can't think
You start to feel yourself sink
Listen to me and listen carefully
Breathe
Breathe
Breathe
Fulfill your entity
And feel
Peace
Peace
Peace
Descend your energy
Embrace your pain
Let it drain
That will bring integrity
Forget your name
You are not your mind
We are more than flesh and bones
That's just a temporary home
We are eternity
Close your eyes
And silently feel the essence of your soul

Physical pain is the worst kind of pain
it plagues the body and drives the mind insane.
It's hell when laying down for sleep
and much worse when the sun rises because you keep feeling weak.
Poor quality of life and muscles feel debilitated.
Never a moment of good health and memory completely faded.
Can't think clearly with a thick fog clouding your head,
sometimes you think you'd rather be dead.
Alone in your struggle you try to keep on
because nobody understands it for very long.
Short tempered and short of breath, but you still try your best.
Head up, hopes down from the pain that never ceases to drown.
As if the earth is literally on your shoulders
And betrayer has gouged daggers deep in your skin.
You'd think it was a sin
but you see this isn't emotional it is very real and physical.

Many people think they feel this way and many people actually do.
The point is to love one another and try to understand each other's struggles
not compare.