how is it possible to feel so broken?
fall leaves crushed on the sidewalk.
i feel like i need a saviour.
i feel like i need some help.
feel's like i'm falling uphill ******* backward.

i'm afraid. i'm lost. i'm stuck and i'm alive.
still.
all i can tell myself is how sorry i am.
how everything will be okay, because i'm naive.
but i know myself, and i'm not fooled.

i don't know what to do, but i know exactly..
i'm so confused, i'm like falling into a huge
black hole type of heaven.

help?

what is normal? because i surely don't feel it.
how do you find peace? i only see it flying with doves, out of reach.
i don't know if i feel normal, but i know i sense an odd scent.
it burns my skin, a smell you can sense from miles away...
or as close as a glance into my eyes.

somebody please, show me normal.
is it brown hair, or blue skin? is it blind,
or faith? i can't tell from being on the fence all my life.
is that normal?

i crave an understanding. i lack a truth.
i don't know sometimes whether i'm in, out, or ******.
upside down is how my eyes perceive, but my brain turns me around.
to me... that's normal. a knowledge that my head ain't crazy, but my body
has a heart. i'm crazy, and i know that..it's normal.

I don't feel.
i just know how you feel.

your blood runs.
in me.
i've always learned.
how to feel, it isn't anything new.

so with you.
i choose to wait.
with you, i want to.
with you it's something new.

it feels so weird...