come
we watch eachother's
vermilion beads surface
and remain mesmerised
in eachother's company

you'll whisper
i'll stare
we'll clean up
and you'll show me
you love me

but love, when i awake
they'll be a note
and i'll cry and reopen
last nights wounds

i told her i self-harm
by writing
'i cut myself'
in the middle of her homework diary

well, ****

but i want to be the drugs
he consumes to remind
himself he's alive

i want to replace
his daily blunt;
make the day worth remembering

oh, i wish to stroke his scars;
the way he wished
she would

i want to show him
my wrists
and have him read,
like brail
what this planet of hostility
has carved into my skin
too

today i tried to say goodbye
to the world
and the hate she posses

took one last glance
at the scars which rested
where the time should

kissed one last boy;
hoped he'd tell me he loved me
this time

gave one last ****
before i had no more
to give

today wasn't my last day
and now i am numb

fingers spread across
the keyboard; hesitation
i can't find the words
because i don't know the feelings

these crimson beads,
lines which contradict themselves
in the beauty they posses

dry my wrist
and wipe my tears, love
because i have no one